Still can’t find this magna

The uke has black hair and the seme has blonde hair. The uke is “odd” and gets upset over little things and assumes the worst. He is suicidal sometimes.He tries to kill himself because I think the seme got mad at him(?) and the uke tried to hang himself. But that wasn’t the first time he tried to kill himself. He tried to kill him self 3 or 4 times before that because of different reasons I think family issues was one of the reasons (again?). The ropes are hanging on the tree outside his window. He also gets these depression episodes where he doesn’t move or do anything but sit there and the seme takes care of him whenever that happens. Like washes,him,feeds him, etc. when the uke “wakes up” from the depression episode he doesn’t remember anything that happened. And goes back to being clingy and happy.