Can somebody hit me with some shit that'll break me emotionally like lonely to organdy or ...

Honestly nothing can top Life Senjou no Bokura. Have u read Dark Heaven?

I don't know if it'll top what you mentioned (those two are damn heartbreaking) but here are some that are really kinda sad

http://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/nigatsu_no_eden/

http://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/bl_of_the_dead/ (this is an anthology, some of the stories are just ;w;)

http://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/spring_snow_odongtong/

http://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/croquis/ (chapters 5&7)

try reading complex,, it's very similar to life senjou no bokura!

http://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/complex_manda_ringo/

Not BL but definitely heart breaking
http://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/watashitachi_no_shiawase_na_jikan/

ohh wait I have more recs, these are quite popular:

http://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/kimi_to_parade/
http://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/paradise_view/ (sequel to kimi to parade)
http://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/kimi_no_yume_o_mite_iru/

more:
http://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/500_nen_no_itonami/
http://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/hana_no_miyako_de/
http://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/kosha_ura_no_natsu/

http://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/lovers_and_souls/
this one will break your soul
http://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/border/
http://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/bokura_wa_nando_mo_koi_o_suru/
http://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/boys_love/
http://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/hana_to_ryuu/
http://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/love_mode/
(towards the end, when all of them were staying in the cottage in england together, and what follow, leaves me a puddle every time)
http://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/10_years_where_i_loved_you_the_most/

http://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/kowagaranai_de_soba_ni_ite/
http://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/hana_no_miyako_de/
(the 2 spin-offs to this have a happy ending)
http://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/koi_nanka_shitakunai/ my heart was aching the entire time
http://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/renchin/ I cried from ch2 till the end
http://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/hinadori_wa_shiokaze_ni_madoromu/