After reading this chapter that just came out just showed me how far Yashiro is willing to go for Doumeki to get away from him and not be part of the group anymore. In the beginning I just kept thinking that "Yashiro is just being really cruel to Doumeki. Why can't he just let him stay and for them to be together". I realized that his cruelness is an act of kindness towards Doumeki. Yashiro has been through sooo much pain in his life. Raped by his mother boyfriend as a kid and used rough sex as a way to cope with that trauma he went through. Yashiro has never been treated gently by anyone until Doumeki came. Doumeki was like a ray of hope for Yashiro, he was pure, had a good heart, kind and didn't see Yashiro as a pervert or sex addict. Doumeki respected the boss and thought he was most beautiful person he had ever seen. And I think that Doumeki feeling that way showed Yashiro that someone finally cared for him and would accept him even with all his flaws. I believe that once Yashiro found out the lengths Doumeki was willing to go through to protect Yashiro, even give his life for him, Yashiro couldn't bare to see that. Yashiro tried multiple times to try to let Doumeki go. Like telling him not to get comfortable with the group because he hasn't exchanged sake cups yet, leaving Doumeki behind after having sex, Yashiro telling his subordinates not to tell Doumeki where he is, Yashiro tell's Doumeki that everything was an act when they had sex, he shoots him not just once but twice in the leg so that he can't follow him into danger, and finally he tells Nanahara that he forgot Doumeki and can't remember him because of a head injury (which I think we all can tell that that's a lie). All these acts are ways to protect Doumeki from practically killing myself by doing this job. I think that the last resort Yashiro had to make sure that Doumeki would leave is by telling him he forgot about him. Yashiro does this because Doumeki is very stubborn. Even with all the things that Yashiro has said and done to Doumeki to try to get him to leave the group and leave Yashiro alone it goes through one ear and out the other for Doumeki. But even with Yashiro saying he forgot Doumeki I don't think Doumeki is planning to leave him just like that. I feel like Doumeki will try to find other ways to stand by Yashiro side to protect him even if it means from a distance. Anyway, I just want Yashiro to know that it's okay for change to happen in your life, it's okay to let go of the past and move forward with your life. To be able to finally be at peace with yourself and be able to have someone like Doumeki in your life that will accept you for who you are and love you no matter what.
After reading this chapter that just came out just showed me how far Yashiro is willing to go for Doumeki to get away from him and not be part of the group anymore. In the beginning I just kept thinking that "Yashiro is just being really cruel to Doumeki. Why can't he just let him stay and for them to be together". I realized that his cruelness is an act of kindness towards Doumeki. Yashiro has been through sooo much pain in his life. Raped by his mother boyfriend as a kid and used rough sex as a way to cope with that trauma he went through. Yashiro has never been treated gently by anyone until Doumeki came. Doumeki was like a ray of hope for Yashiro, he was pure, had a good heart, kind and didn't see Yashiro as a pervert or sex addict. Doumeki respected the boss and thought he was most beautiful person he had ever seen. And I think that Doumeki feeling that way showed Yashiro that someone finally cared for him and would accept him even with all his flaws.
I believe that once Yashiro found out the lengths Doumeki was willing to go through to protect Yashiro, even give his life for him, Yashiro couldn't bare to see that. Yashiro tried multiple times to try to let Doumeki go. Like telling him not to get comfortable with the group because he hasn't exchanged sake cups yet, leaving Doumeki behind after having sex, Yashiro telling his subordinates not to tell Doumeki where he is, Yashiro tell's Doumeki that everything was an act when they had sex, he shoots him not just once but twice in the leg so that he can't follow him into danger, and finally he tells Nanahara that he forgot Doumeki and can't remember him because of a head injury (which I think we all can tell that that's a lie). All these acts are ways to protect Doumeki from practically killing myself by doing this job. I think that the last resort Yashiro had to make sure that Doumeki would leave is by telling him he forgot about him. Yashiro does this because Doumeki is very stubborn. Even with all the things that Yashiro has said and done to Doumeki to try to get him to leave the group and leave Yashiro alone it goes through one ear and out the other for Doumeki. But even with Yashiro saying he forgot Doumeki I don't think Doumeki is planning to leave him just like that. I feel like Doumeki will try to find other ways to stand by Yashiro side to protect him even if it means from a distance.
Anyway, I just want Yashiro to know that it's okay for change to happen in your life, it's okay to let go of the past and move forward with your life. To be able to finally be at peace with yourself and be able to have someone like Doumeki in your life that will accept you for who you are and love you no matter what.