someone recommend me some tragedy heartbreaking shounen ai like a really tearjerker paaale...

Shounen ai? Only one I can think of right now is: http://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/500_nen_no_itonami/

Try this
http://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/bokura_no_negai/
These lists might come in handy too
http://www.mangago.zone/home/mangalist/296381/
http://www.mangago.zone/home/mangalist/15503/
Aaand looks like I'm on the same feels train now oops

Thanks a lot "a i r - s a n" and "Sarquael-san" <3 <3