im so confused. was he aware of himself or not? what is going onnnn??? ><"

As far as we know, Chamin isn't aware of what is doing during this moments

"Hmmm, well, let's see Watson, we have a dude who just broke up with his gf with a gay room mate in college, it seems to me he got basted and went bi for a try." "By George, Holmes, you've cracked the case!" lol