well u need to realize that the person u love is not real. its like having a huge crush on someone, u ignore all the bad parts and just admire them. but when that someone finally responds and u start dating u come to realize that it wasnt a big deal after all and ur expectations(and his "perfect" side) are crushed. sure we do love some characters but we only love one side of them, find a person that is real and that u can love and understand all of his sides.
I know. But it's kind of difficult. I've never had had a boyfriend nor even go out with someone. I know that I love one side of them but I want to get to know them. The thing is that, how do I explain? Being a fangirl ia difficult, hella difficult. I can't find the words to explain myself. Sorry. :(
I'm just having a hard time dealing with myself. I'm a fan and I love that. The problem resides in the fact that I get wat too obsessed with my favourite males of all media (actors, k-actors, seiyuus, 2D characters, manga characters, book characters, everyone, singers, boybands, k-pop singers, GOD). I always cry, always. Actually, I'm feeling like shit because I just imagined a complete life with an actor who doesn't know 'bout my existence at all.