Well said. I feel sorry for the living who needs to continue to bear the suffering, including the dad.
It's not that easy sadly. When you feel truly alone, everything is against you and you're just drowning in all of it... usually, "letting go" becomes more and more appealing. That's why there's been alot of suicide hotlines and awareness of it to give light of the mentality. It's very hard to deal with alone, let alone get out of once you're drowning already. It's usually a third party or at least someone to be on your side at all times that can help you get out of it.
It sounds selfish and difficult to place that job on someone, that's why it's so hard to ask for it.
I know you didn't mean harm when saying you "feel sorry for the living" but what's actually happening is "maybe they're better of without me" and "what's the point of this struggle when I'm just hurting everyone anyway" and "I'm weighing them down with all my baggage". It feels like there's no light at the end of the tunnel. Worst part is it never really goes away, it just builds up if left alone.
When someone comes to a point of suicide, they're already so guilt-ridden about everything and feeling that way and filled with so much negative emotions that putting more blame just makes it worse and amplifies it and that's why communication is so important.
My bad, this got lengthy but experiencing being on the side of the drowning, it frustrates me abit when it's downplayed. It's not easy to not give up.
Yeah, sometimes you're just so tired that the next best thing is to let go.
I wish everyone dealing with this had someone that could be by their side, cause it all stems from loneliness.
Sure, life's hard. But it's worse when you have to face it alone, even worse when the onew that are supposed to cry your death are the ones making your life hell.
*sigh* suicide is still not an answer we should opt for, maybe it'll get better, who knows
They're all at fault. But suicide is not the best solution to all the problems in our life. Because, once you're dead...you can never.....make a decison ever again. We only have one life, do everyhting you can and best, while were still alive. Don't give up! It's not yet the end of the world.