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He did suffer a lot, almost to the point of obsession. Some of my friends who've already read the novel like me felt so sorry for him that they forgave him for the last part. And I do feel sorry for him as well, believe it or not, I do believe that he still loves Zhi shu, even while he was having an affair behind Zhi Shu's back. He believed that he loved himself more than anyone, but at the moment Zhi Shu ran away from home, he realized that he couldn't stand by himself if Zhi Shu wasn't there for him.
I just want to know....spoiler ahead, you've been warned
Does the seme feel any remorse at all when the uke dies?