BL source

I've been looking for a heap of BL manga/doujins, with no luck. So, I figured I'd ask here and see if anyone can tell me what they are.

Two childhood friends experiment with each other, because the seme (I remember as being very logical, rather than emotional) wants to learn about the uke's body for biology. But it turns out the seme was using that as an excuse.

The next has the seme being sadistic toward the uke. The uke notices the seme smiles a certain way when hurting the uke during sex. The scene I remember from it is that the two find a stray cat and the seme smiles at it, making the uke think that he'll hurt the cat but no harm comes to the cat.

The last three are much more vague in my memory, but it's worth a shot.

There's two guys in an apartment, one of them is smoking while the other is talking (either in his head or out loud) about addiction, particularly the seme's addiction to the uke. One scene that sticks in my head is that there's a scene outside by a fountain.

Another one has a guy used by a group of people for sex, but there's dialogue about how they're gonna get someone else ("Find a girl next time who can give us a nice paizuri" is a line I remember) and the uke has sex with the MC in a bathroom stall at school, IIRC.

The last is two friends and one has either consensual sex with the other or rapes him. The uke runs home and breaks down over it, sitting with his back against a door, crying, while hugging his legs to his chest.


Any sources would be greatly appreciated and I know I've provided such little detail, but this is all I can remember for them. I'm primarily interested in the first one, as I read that not long ago and am confused how I'm not able to find it again. Again, thanks for any help.