Is it weird to have never have had a crush?

Kyoko Usagi November 30, 2018 7:27 pm

Idk, someone asked me recently, do you have a crush on someone? I kinda thought about it... and no. It’s not like i have any hard standards (that our relationship helps to grow and better both of us as an individual), i don’t really care about appearence, and it’s just kind more like I don’t let anyone that far into my emotional state. i think its kinda weird as i am a 16 year old in a highschool who is not remotely obsessed with purity or something.

I’ve always been the one in my friend group that seems emotionally stable and responsible (hence my nickname mom), which i know is not entirely the case. I’ve never opened up about my jumbled mess of a mind to anyone, not even to my best friend, or my parents. It’s just quietly simmering there. I don’t think I can currently trust anyone with that much personal vulnerability, and I know that isn’t a good thing, the only thing keeping me stable is self reflecting. I really do want a relationship with someone that helps me open up to people, but right now all of the people I’m friendly with aren’t really... mature enough to understand my weirdly contradictory mental thoughts, and idk. How should I open up to others more?

Responses
    ayara_chan November 30, 2018 7:38 pm

    its not weird for me at least bcs i live in a world where someone u like doesnt exist in a real life even though world turn upside down todoroki will never be by side.. wait.. does this count as a crush?

    Otaku24 November 30, 2018 7:41 pm

    I know what u mean... 18 yo and the same as you, never had a boyfriend and never thought of having one (more like there's no one that picked my interest even if I don't mind appearance and my standards are not high).There are 2 sides of me, my friends only know my happy and calm side and not the sad and insecure one... And I don't plan of showing them
    Idk if I want to let them see my weak part, it's not like I don't trust them it's just that I don't wanna appear.. Weak(?)
    Well I don't think it's a problem, I just wanna show them my best and make them proud of me. Oh but I know for sure that they will accept me even if I'm weak and insecure

    Otaku24 November 30, 2018 7:42 pm
    I know what u mean... 18 yo and the same as you, never had a boyfriend and never thought of having one (more like there's no one that picked my interest even if I don't mind appearance and my standards are not ... Otaku24

    I'm sorry it's not an answer but I hope it can help you( ̄∇ ̄")

    Kyoko Usagi November 30, 2018 11:49 pm
    I know what u mean... 18 yo and the same as you, never had a boyfriend and never thought of having one (more like there's no one that picked my interest even if I don't mind appearance and my standards are not ... Otaku24

    Thank you ^v^. It gives me at least some relief that someone thinks somewhat the way I do. It really is comforting, thank you so much :). I hope you the best .

    Kyoko Usagi November 30, 2018 11:51 pm
    its not weird for me at least bcs i live in a world where someone u like doesnt exist in a real life even though world turn upside down todoroki will never be by side.. wait.. does this count as a crush? ayara_chan

    XD thank you. i wish you the best and that you find someone that treates you well :)