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Thank you rof your translation.
But I dont agree with your way of thinking. We cant compare fuck buddies to actual relationship, when they spent time together beside sex.
Jiwon was his whole life treated like shit by his family, he had to pretend to be someone else, he was lonely and depressed and then he met someone who manipulated him and lied to him that they loved him. Its on the different level for me.
Also their "love" is really tragic. DG who fall for Alex and not Jiwon and mainly for his appearance and Jiwon who would fall for ANYONE who would show him live and warmth and take care for him (what is more sad because DG even doesn't know him and fall rather for Alex than Jiwon himself).
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And also Jiwon was just kid back then who was more guilible,innocent and weaker mentaly and DG who is an adult guy.
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Thank you.
Good points but it's like someone who says "I want to be sex buddies" but then gets pissed and want you to be their only sex buddy, want you to give everything to them only, and does stuff that makes it seem like they want something more. Plus jiwon pretty much manipulated DG as well. There are so many references where he thought DG would just be a pushover and he can do whatever he wants.
Even Mingwa wrote it so Jiwon would do the same thing as his ex. Plus all the shit he did to DG was pretty bad. Especially some sex scenes where he was basically destroying DG's asshole just because he was pissed. Even his ex didn't do that lol.
Also I think DG likes both alex and Jiwon. It's possible to like both. DG had a lot of fun with Jiwon and even after all he did DG still loved him. That isn't alex's character to act cruel. That was jiwon's.
Plus i think Jiwon actually likes DG for DG. He finally gotten over wack ass Hui min and was wondering why he let him affect his life so much. Plus he doesn't get satisfaction anymore from BJ-ing. Only DG can "fill the emptiness". He just wants DG to love him.
I do feel like Mingwa is trying to express this but it didn't come across to readers as well.
But it's the beginning of a turning point and I'm excited to see what happens next
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Thank you it’s crystal clear now
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I dont know man. They are older than me and I act a lot more mature irl tbh.
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(T/N: IMPORTANT NOTES I use these symbols to quote these things.
-- text-- (narration jiwon's perspective)
"text" (dialogue)
Hope this helps)
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Texts jiwon to Huimin (one sided) (T/N: each number is a different text bubble. There are also dates to tell you how long he's been trying to reach him)
Jiwon: 1: Hyung, did you sleep well? What are you doing today?
2: What are you doing???
3: I miss you
4:Hyung~~
20XX 13/9
5: hyung, I can't reach you... Why don't you call me..
6: Are you eating well?
20XX 04/10
7: Hyung where are you
8: Did you cut off your phone?
9: Hyung...
*Jiwon looking worried over Mingwa-ga's signature black and red doom background (lol)*
*scene of huimin's back for a panel as he narrates*
--From a certain moment, he left me behind--
*back to Jiwon looking even more worried over his phone*
Jiwon thinking: Surely....
*begins to put on his coat and prepares to leave and heada out to a club Huimin frequents called "Club Heaven"*
*BAM the scene where Huimin is making out with someone else in the club*
Jiwon: *distraught* !!!!
*they go outside. Scene we previously see they just go more into depth*
*it's snowing*
Jiwon: *shouting* "How could you!"
Jiwon: *crying and pleading*"How...! How can you.... Hyung how..."
"I love you..."
"I...I can't believe it"
"I thought you loved me...?"
"Hyung did you...?"
* Whooooooosh (wind) *suspense**
Huimin: *Ha* *Smirks* *then evil smile* "Hey dumbass! Did you actually believe that?"
*Jiwon looks shocked/dumbfounded/in disbelief. Tears still flowing but shocked and still face*
Huimin: "Are you really that naive?! Bahahaha!"
Jiwon: "W..What..."
Huimin: "bahahaha!"
"What should I do. I thought with me not contacting you, you would take the hint." *says this while shaking his head and smiling at his naivety*
"I miscalculated"
"I approached you to seduce your brother but I thought you would be more fun"
"I did not know that I was going to get you this easy"
Jiwon: *zooms in at his pale shocked face. Looks more shocked* "....!"
*zooms back out to both of them side panel them facing each other*
Huimin: "love?"
"I never loved you, not for a single moment"
Jiwon: *trembling biting his lip in disbelief* "Wha..."
Huimin: *walking away waving his hand* "I am gonna go now. It was fun~~" *left*
*jiwon falls to the ground on his knees. Crying his eyes out*
--and that's the end of my first love, a lie--
*beginning of montage for what happened in between the "breakup" and right up to where he met DG* *first panel trees*
--Since then, my daily life was a mess and I couldn't get away with it--
*second panel him just fucking some random guy*
--I randomly had sex with any guy--
*third panel him fighting with someone*
--there was a lot of fighting because I couldn't control my anger--
*scene change to police station*
*Jiwon sitting in the waiting area with his brother. They're quiet. Ruckus from the other party*
Jihoon(brother): "Yoon Jiwon, if you're gonna be like this you should just go to the military"
*panel zoom to jiwon's scratched up and sad/pained face*
--everything was meaningless--
--I could not believe in it nor love anything anymore.--
*panel of him in the military uniform*
-- I was still so lonely--
*highlighted narration*
-- I wanted to be loved--
*fast forward to when he first discovered about BJs (T/N: broadcast jockeys. Not the other bj )*
*just browsing and mumbling to himself*
Jiwon: "What's this..?"
*panel shows some random BJ*
"Adult broadcasting?"
"Why do people even watch this."
*panel showing comment section praising the BJ*
Jiwon: "...." "I can do better"
--So I found another way like before (T/N: continuting from last narration where he said "I wanted to be loved")--
*panels showing him prepping for his show*
Jiwon to audience: "Hi, I'm BJ Alex"
"Thank you for joining my first broadcast"
--Everybody, love me.--
***BJ Alex Title. Ch 51***
*back to the present WOOHOO*
*panel of umbrella by doorway on the floor*
*panel of many alcohol bottles and full ashtray*
*Jiwon on couch laying down with eyes that look like they've been crying*
*him smoking and staring at the graduation picture of him, his brother, and Huimin*
*panel shows pic then zooms in on Huimin* (T/N: looks like He's just remembering it and finally getting over it)
--It's been years and it's still been bothering me
--If he loved me I wouldn't be in this situation right now.
Jiwon muttering to himself: "Fuck you..." *as he rips up the photo. (T/N: Good riddance to that)*
--I was afraid of being hurt again and I did the same thing to Donghyun--
--I didn't realize my true feelings and I pushed Donggyun and hurt him.--
*panel of him recalling what DG said outside the cafe "when I'm with you I only get hurt"*
Jiwon muttering to himself: *sigh* "What's the use of regretting now"
--Can I love in the future--
-- I'm afraid I'll get hurt again if I give my heart away--
--But, when you think about it...--
*panel of him recalling things*
1st panel: him entering the cafe after running in the rain trying to find DG
2nd panel: him grabbing onto DG saying "don't go" after getting drunk and DG taking care of him
3rd panel: DG and him at the movies. DG smiling and Jiwon yawning
4th panel: Jiwon staring through the cafe window from outside at DG talking to MD
5th panel: him proposing the idea of sex partners at the chinese restaurant to DG
6th panel: him hugging DG when DG requested a hug from him when he found out he was Alex
7th panel: DG asking Jiwon "are you BJ Alex?"
*back to him on the couch chuckling and feeling the nostalgia. Little smile*
Jiwon: Heh.
--From the first time we met, Nam Donggyun was absorbed into my life (T/N: continuation from previous narration)
*narration over panel of them introducing themselves for the first time.*
Jiwon to himself: *facepalm and chuckle* "Ha... Now you realize"
--If I could go back in time, --
*panel of him recalling DG asking "Sunbae, do you love me"*
*panel of Jiwon facing him with sweatdrop*
*panel of Jiwon on the couch in present time beginning to well up/ tear up*
*back to panel recalling except second to last panel is of him blushing instead prepared to say yes*
*back to the couch*
*last panel in beautiful color*
*him with his hand on his head smiling and crying*
Jiwon: "...heh...I love you"
--I can answer--
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Finally back to the present!!! Yes!! Mingwa-ga said it would be a turning point in the story now. I think there may be an extra lengthy chapter next week or a 2 episode special next week.
I think Jiwon fucked up. People are saying DG went into this with anterior motives but in reality they both did. DG went to find love and Jiwon went into it because he couldn't get hard with anyone else. But he didn't say this to DG. DG even asked him "what if I say no?" when he proposed the idea and got him sweatin'. He lied saying he could just find someone else and not admit it can only be him.
Plus he did the exact same thing Huimin did to him. Mingwa even wrote it like that. Plus what happens in the past to someone is no excuse to treat someone like crap and hurt them.
Anyways I still want them to get together and I am excited to see what happens next. I also hope we'll see more of what happens on campus or if he goes by the cafe more often. I cannot wait till next week!
I'm also just glad the flashback is over. It was necessary but I need more of the story! (╯°Д °)╯╧╧
Next week needs to come sooner. (=・ω・=)