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mitsy October 30, 2018 9:12 am

I'm on an expert on trauma. But really. Don't hate hyesung. Don't stop reading the story. Fargo does a really great job in expressing the complexities of trauma and how it affects your life.

Imagine it. Put yourself in his shoes. You grew up with unloving parents who treat you less than dirt because you were born a certain way. Like female chinese babies being tossed because they're born female. No matter what you did--no matter how high your grades are, no matter how hard you struggled all throughout your life--they don't care.

And you get shat on because you're essentially-- you. You grow up unable to love someone because it is difficult to love even yourself. A first exposure to love caused you to run. To hide. To keep yourself from getting hurt because that's all what the "love" you learned was. Getting hurt. Getting beaten. Getting treated like you're nothing and worth nothing.

And then imagine. You thought you finally finds a guy that sees YOU for YOU---something you never really saw yourself, and it overwhelms you with an inexplicable emotion--love?-- and suddenly, he says the same shit everyone else did. He said you were worthless. "What can he do when he's just an omega?". Everything just rushes back, the trauma, the hate, the anguish--and you run. Because he's just the same as everyone else.

Because no matter what, you were born worthless, right? You just want to hide. Leave. Leave everything that reminded you of what you thought you could be. But in those words...you're just an omega.

You're not you.

What did Dojin do to make him think differently? Give him a contract that tells him to keep the baby for money? Hello? How does that help his sense of worth? What else does he do? Rape him. Obviously, because he's just an omega (obviously I'm referring to the time where he was going to leave the apartment to live with his friend). Now that the baby's out and the contract's over, Dojin had one chance to make him feel like a human being. But he says those words --"just an omega"-- just when he started his pathway to self-worth and discovery. How do you think it would make him feel? GREAT?

I dunno. Give Hyesung a break. And the author, too. You must have some experience with self-worth to be able to accurately depict such heartbreaking moments.

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    mitsy October 30, 2018 9:12 am

    not** an expert on trauma. my bad.