i agree with you 120%.
no amount of psychiatric visits can help you... worst if the experience came from your parents...
the scar is there... even when you knew you are moving on - in one instant - the nightmare can all flash in your mind... and you will crumble...
its a terrible feeling....
thats why i understand Hyesung and i love him... there's so much inside of him that we do not known and there's a lot he was protecting...
he build a wall - a concrete / steel wall to protect his heart... that even us readers are bing kept away...
i just love him and want to say... everything will turn out alright. you're not alone.
As a child who have shitty childhood, I know what Hyesung feel. He worth the love from Dojin. He lost everything as a child. Love from his mother and father, freedom to study peacefully, etc. Really hope he will live happily ever after like princesses story.
For all of you who underestimate Hyesung.
I just wanna say that childhood trauma isn't something you can take for granted. And worse, you will remember it for the rest of your life.