http://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/bj_alex/uu/bj_alex-chapter-34/16/ isn't he crying for h...

I m pretty sure He is. ...

Me too.

he is. i don't remember where but i found chapter 35 and we see a flashback of his and horrible ex past.

Here's the korean raws of you want them. You can pretty much make out what happens.
https://toonkor.app/BJ-알렉스