My family didn't take my issues seriously too back then, and I just kinda had to hang in there for quite a long...in my case, it got better with the age. I can't offer you any answers, unfortunately, but your feelings as an individual are valid sweetheart
You didn't go in detail how your mother & brother contribute to your depression. Are you being bullied? If you are bullied you should move away asap.
Generally it's a bad idea to live with a young pair - they'll be starting a family soon and you don't want to be the 5th wheel. Or be there when the drama happens.
Get an appointment with a therapist. Seeing how you already tried to suicide your father should understand. If he doesn't, contact the hotline again and see what they can do. Understand your depression first and then maybe consider moving.
Dont worry! you're a beautiful flower. you deserve to Live. I too am a very suicidal prone person and i tried to kill myself yesterday but someone stopped me and people bash out on him as "troll" but he is one of the kindest person. Live. we'll get through this together
I have issues too. Tons of Problems overlapping. and sometimes i cant take it anymore since my parents is aso the reason why I wanna die. but oh well, lets just hope one day i wont kill myself. but now i'm thinking positive as i can be :)
You are not a selfish brat. Your dad might not want you to move because you are one of the only good people in the house so he'd miss you. I think ultimately you should do what you think feel right for you and what would be the best for you, because it's your life and your the only one who can live it. Then when your make a plan/decision do not doubt yourself or try to talk yourself out of it because if your gut and head are telling you it's the right move it probably is.
Since your sister said she thought you'd move in at 18, it probably wouldn't have happened anytime soon so you could stop focusing on that. Instead, try to stay away from potential sources of bad feelings (your mother and brother?) as much as possible. That is, to the extent you can go without weirding them out, potentially causing them to make trouble for you. Although I don't know much about the situation (strangers on the internet xD), I wouldn't say you're just being a brat. And if you were that close to killing yourself, I wouldn't take your depression lightly.
Ofc this may not actually help but I'll say it anyway.... you seem to be in a situation where you kinda have to sit it out for a few years until you can leave home and build a happier life for yourself. In that time, having willpower to persist will be extremely important. And for that, you'd need a real reason to live... do you have a goal or something you want to achieve, build or feel in life? I'd suggest finding something that really moves you at your core and holding on to it. And it's ok to doubt it and be unmotivated from time to time, everyone has those phases, just know it'll pass :).
On another note, physical exercise, sun exposure and socializing can work wonders for a great mood :D.
I hope you'll continue to live and keep being the wonderful being you are. Every life is beautiful, and I hope you'll be able to fully enjoy and cherish yours :).
(Omg look at that wall of text I did it again xD oopsie.... have this *gives cookie and hugs* owo)
Thanks you guys for the replies, hugs to you all (ﾉ_；)ヾ(´ ∀ ` )
I am 15 and suffering from a sort of depression. At least, I think I have it now that I tried to kill myself about two weeks ago but called suicide hotline last minute and they required me to tell somebody so my family found out. Okay, that was a while ago but it still ties into things.
For the past three days, I have been hanging out with my sister, Len, and Kuma, Len's fiance. Both of them I am really close to. So they talk about me moving in with them when they get a new house which is quite soon. I get really excited but of course, I am holding back since I don't want to burden them financially or because of my emotional state.
So when I get home, I talk to ma and dad about it and both say no. My father says his reasons in a very vague way, but at the end he said that I will understand when I get older and have my own family. Either way, since I don't understand it, it really upsets and stresses me. He also seemed to say that it would effect my future, maybe I might make a wrong move, or something along those lines.
The reason I want to move out is to get away from my mother and brother, both of whom were half the reason of my depression because of how they put my father, sister, Kuma, and so many good people down.
When I play rant to my sister about it, she tells me she was actually thinking I could move in with them when I was around 18. So basically, I was an idiot and misunderstood that I wasn't moving in with them anytime soon.
Dad already knows that Ma and Bert are contributing to the cause of my depression, although ma doesn't know since that will just cause more arguments between me and her and that will just jump-start those dark suicidal emotions again.
Is my depression just not that serious? Am I just being a selfish brat? Are my parents right and I should stay home and not move in with Len and Kuma? I am currently chipping off college years by taking clep tests and plan to get a high paying job after graduating. Is there some type of grown-up thing that I can only learn when I am older? Please answer honestly even if it might hurt ╥﹏╥