Responses
He was raped and emotionally manipulated. It’s kinda gross to call his love disgusting when he is the victim. ;;;;;
But he's self aware. He's not making excuses and he says that those actions aren't those of someone in love. He knows it's one sided and messy, but the heart wants what it wants. Pretending not to love the prince and leaving him (as I suspect he will do next) won't make his love disappear.
Also he is the victim at the end of the day and I think his torment is beautiful not disgusting.
Also, this is fiction.
Ian's love is disgusting. He was raped for fuck's sake. Eeew. His love is proof that he's already broken. #－.－)