Self Harm/ Suicide? Maybe some advise for you?

SleepDeprivation April 28, 2018 10:25 pm

Can I get a raise of "hands" of people who have self harmed, and/or attempted suicide?
*raises hand
I know I have done both. I used to cut and burn myself, and I tried to commit suicide 6 times now.
One of the times, and the most recent times, I overdosed of the medication that I am supposed to take. I was supposed to take two pills twice a day. Once in the morning, and once before I eat dinner. Instead, I popped 8. I had a huge trip, and killed my own ego. And then I woke up in the ER. Laying in that bed, I thought 'you know what, I need to stop. Why am I even doing this?'
I thought about it, and it was for the dumbest reason.
You wanna know that reason?
It was because I was listening to the society. I am a transgender male, and the society didn't accept that. They tell you things like, "its just a phase", or "why did you choose to do this to yourself?". And you know what I did? I tried to explain myself, and when they denied my explanations, I tried to come up with more and more reasons.
In that little room, I realized that the only answer I needed to give anyone was, 'because, thats just how I am, and if you don't like, or accept me for who I am, you should just mind your own damn business.'
So if you get questioned about what or who you like, or if you get questioned on who you want to be, then just tell them to go and go fuck themselves.
Let me hear your stories in the replies.

Responses
    Angel April 29, 2018 1:32 am
    well i dont care if he/she is lying or not. i just get irritated by random people who think that this site is for bad-mouthing others.. ermar

    I'm a he, and I wasn't lying.

    SleepDeprivation April 30, 2018 7:16 am
    why haven't you succeeding in killing yourself already? it's about time you do this world a favor.remember kids!!!down the street, not across the road ;^^)) @Anonymous

    Well...
    Thaaaaaaaaaaaanks

    SleepDeprivation April 30, 2018 7:22 am
    My name is Aurelius, and I am a transgender male, as well. I know how you feel completely. I told my mom when I was in middle school, but not my dad. She completely ignored it the first time I told her, and bec... Angel

    Wow, thanks! I'll try to get that book, if my mom let's me.... I have come out to my parents, but they keep saying "you'll grow out of it". It depresses me a lot, but I guess I'll eventually get through it all. Thanks again for your kind words!

    SleepDeprivation April 30, 2018 7:23 am
    why so many transboys read yaoi but cis boys dont, wonders. @Anonymous

    Same

    SleepDeprivation April 30, 2018 7:25 am
    "A lot of my" like you have any friends at all to even distinguish them. Lol. @Anonymous

    Are you the same person who told me to try to kill myself again?
    You're a little bitch, you know that?

    SleepDeprivation April 30, 2018 7:26 am
    How does it feel wasting hours and days of your life reading yaoi instead of learning proper english? enlighten me @Anonymous

    How does it feel to be a literal dick?

    SleepDeprivation April 30, 2018 7:30 am
    How does it feel wasting hours and days of your life reading yaoi instead of learning proper english? enlighten me @Anonymous

    Wow, this comment section became a real hell hole, huh?

    Angel May 6, 2018 11:21 am
    Wow, thanks! I'll try to get that book, if my mom let's me.... I have come out to my parents, but they keep saying "you'll grow out of it". It depresses me a lot, but I guess I'll eventually get through it all.... SleepDeprivation

    I don't know what's up with that lame "Anonymous" that's too scared to make an account so that people can track him/her down for the shit he/she says, but it's cowardly and they shouldn't be doing or saying stuff like that. Anyway, how old are you? I mean, high school, middle school, college? My parents always said stuff like that until I went to a therapist with them and they were told that it was an actual scientific condition that one doesn't "grow out of". I suppose their excuse was having raised me as a female their whole lives, which is a pretty good excuse for being hopeful that it's a phase if you ask me. But, getting them used to it little by little and slowly transitioning by doing things like wearing boys clothes, cutting your hair (that's funny coming from me, I have long hair), etc. I remember one thing that our therapist told my parents that changed how they thought about everything. He said, "A large percentage of transgender people attempt suicide. Would you rather have a dead daughter or a living son?" I'm glad that you're hanging in there, and know that I'm on your side for help when you need it!