A have this gay friend of mine. Best friend of mine. We met in middle school and became be...

... April 4, 2018 7:20 pm

A have this gay friend of mine. Best friend of mine. We met in middle school and became best of friends until college. He's kind, lovable and a lil' bit of a fashionista. He helps me with my studies when I struggle in keeping up with our lessons. He treats me to anything I want if he has enough money with him from time to time. He listens to my personal problems with my family, advices me in a good way and encourages me. He always makes me smile and laugh with his jokes even though he knows it himself that they're definitely lame, and that just makes him more adorable. And to be quite bold of me, he is truly handsome. He's the definition of a tall, dark and handsome you man, for me. He's just great! I was about to confess my feelings but...



He lied to me?



I found out that he was the reason why I often get bad grades. He taught me right things, but most of them were wrong. He helped me keep up until University but quietly told his group of friends how stupid I am. He lies to his parents about money just so he could buy me anything, but then blames me when his parents found out the truth. He told to his friends about my personal problems with my family and quietly joins them in making fun of me behind my back.




I didn't believe about those nonsense at first and kept quiet about it for a week, but when I felt that I had to tell him about this, he burst. He told me the truth without hesitation. He said that I was just for his entertainment. I was a fool. I know. I'm so stupid for not noticing al of it. I was the one whose at fault. I know. He may have hurt me but I...




I fell in love with him. I love him. I really do.




That beautiful moment with a happy ending where the girl confesses her feelings and the boy lovingly accepts it just wasn't for me to begin with. Having a mutual feeling towards each other called LOVE. We may not be friends anymore but...




I still love him. I'm such a fool.




I just hope that he's happy and I pray that someday I'll also be happy once again.




I'm sorry for sharing this but I just want to let this all out. I'm truly sorry.

Responses
    Anonymous April 4, 2018 7:31 pm

    He's gay? And did you confess to him? Are you a girl or a guy? im curious ( ̄∇ ̄")
    Btw how do you know he's gay?

    Anonymous April 4, 2018 7:57 pm

    But he's gay and your a girl? If you confess, I don't think he going to accept you unless he is bisexual

    Okarisu April 4, 2018 8:55 pm
    He's gay? And did you confess to him? Are you a girl or a guy? im curious ( ̄∇ ̄")Btw how do you know he's gay? @Anonymous

    I’m pretty sure it was a typo.

    Okarisu April 4, 2018 9:04 pm

    I’d just tell him you’re sorry that he has to hurt others to make himself feel good, hope that one day he gets better self esteem so that he doesn’t have to rely on insulting and trying to hurt others to gain approval from both himself and his so-called friends, and that you truly pity him.
    That would be the worst possible blow, IMO. Telling him that in the end, instead of thinking yourself the fool, you feel bad for him. The whole time you tell him this, smile. It may hurt, but if you let it show, then he wins. Don’t let him win. If you can’t do that for yourself, then do it for me, some stranger on the Internet. I know guys like these. God, if my university were close to yours I’d go find you and hug you, lol.
    If all else fails, badmouth him. Let people know how terrible he is and let his social status be dragged to the pits of hell. People hate bullies. Actually, don’t do that. That would be something I’d do, and it would probably somehow end up backfiring.

    m0k0u April 4, 2018 9:22 pm

    Is this a shoujo plot?

    friendly-wawa-employee April 4, 2018 9:40 pm

    All the idiots saying "he's gay? He may not accept you" need to shut up, you're giving the wrong advice. Did you not read it AT ALL?? He lied to her about everything! I've been in about the same situation as you with some edits, I was in love with a girl (I'm a girl) and she was my best friend. All of a sudden i find out she's being an asshole behind my back yadda yadda. I still miss her to this day but I've moved on. The only way to get by it is to completely embrace what you are feeling and acknowledge you are upset. Don't lie to yourself. Take the time to mourn and take care of yourself! When you're ready just continue with life, try again with your new experience and find someone who is really meant for you. (I'm so sorry about your grades that part made me growl a bit!!)

    Okarisu April 4, 2018 10:03 pm
    All the idiots saying "he's gay? He may not accept you" need to shut up, you're giving the wrong advice. Did you not read it AT ALL?? He lied to her about everything! I've been in about the same situation as yo... @friendly-wawa-employee

    You should probably take her advice. Mine's petty af. XD

    Anonymous April 4, 2018 11:22 pm
    All the idiots saying "he's gay? He may not accept you" need to shut up, you're giving the wrong advice. Did you not read it AT ALL?? He lied to her about everything! I've been in about the same situation as yo... @friendly-wawa-employee

    No I didn't mean to offend her.

    It's cause OP said 'beautiful moment with a happy ending where the girl confesses her feelings and the boy lovingly accepts it just wasn't for me to begin with.' she had those expectations in the beginning, if she didn't have those expectations. She wouldn't have felt so bad and shocked about it. Yeah he did horrible stuff but still, it would have still lessened her emotional pain knowing that he was gay. So that why I mentioned it.

    But who knows, he might repricoate back if love is love. But it dosen't matter at the end.

    Honestly people will come and go,good and bad (dosen't matter what sexuality) learn from your experiences and make sure you don't take took much burden from the beginning, cause your ending will be shocking and disappointing.

    Anonymous April 4, 2018 11:26 pm
    No I didn't mean to offend her.It's cause OP said 'beautiful moment with a happy ending where the girl confesses her feelings and the boy lovingly accepts it just wasn't for me to begin with.' she had those exp... @Anonymous

    *knowing that he was gay so that it wouldn't have been possible from the beginning anyway.

    But who knows he might have repricted your love if this was some other situation where he wasn't being horrible. But it dosen't matter at the end. At lease you knew what type of persn he was before you confessed

    TiFa April 5, 2018 12:10 am

    He's an ass
    but you probably need time to swallow it, why did he even bother to keep up the facade for so long? did you ask him that?
    In your case I would want to know how he really thinks about you and if he ever has seen you as a friend.
    Maybe confessing would help you to get over?
    P.S. It seems like HE has a huge selfesteem problem. Gossiping is a way to connect with others and get closer. So cheer up!