why are people overreacting about porn I'm sure that almost everyone watches or at least have watched porn before does it really matter if it's straight or gay, that's too much unnecessary awkwardness for this kind of situation it's not really worth crying for
I know how you feel, I know that if my sister would see what I'm reading id be ashamed too but what makes me feel better is knowing that I'm not the only one who enjoys yaoi. So if you need a friend to talk too I'm right here :)
Yaoi is just like watching porn (no, I myself have never or want to touch porn) but in my pov it's better cause no real person is actually sexualised...and about gender issues, it's OK, reading it doesn't mean we support or are against anything or are something ourselves... It's just like reading erotic novels and if you are an adult nobody has the right to stop you even... But I guess I don't deserve to say anything cause I am slightly less than an adult myself, I won't like if anyone found me out reading hardcore stuff... I think nobody should object me for reading Shounen ai tho...
yesterday I read yaoi on my pc in my room just like always, and listened to music from my pc too. my nephew was crying so I go and play with him. my sister wanted to turn off the music because its too loud. I forgot what I read so I just let her turn if off. but then she found what I always read. I was reading a hardcore yaoi, and when my sister open my pc it was on the uncensored sex scene. she just said "oh goodness" and left, but I knew what it mean. I just so nervous but she didn't say a thing. when we were alone she said "you shouldn't read thing like that sis, I saw it". just that, no scolding no more talk, nothing. I just so nervous and I pretend not to hear that.
I have been found out by my parents and been scolded big times. but I can not care about it. my friend found it too and look at me on a weird way, but so what? I know I have friend out there with the same interest just like in mangago, but found by my sister is so different. she just know me so well. yesterday she didn't talk so much, she didn't judge me, didn't scold me. I just angry and sad and in a badmood a whole day thinking why I could be so careless. then this morning (just now), when I put my guard down, she talk to me. still, she did not scold me, but she just talk what on her mind, talk about the fact that she know. she understand me so much, even understand what will pierce my heart. I can't run away, just listening to her, and it hurt so much. I'm happy because I know she want things to be better for me, and I know she care so much about me. I feel so ashamed, and sad. I keep my cool in front of her but I burst into tear after she left my room.
I'll try to stop reading yaoi, slowly. (I know I can't, but I'll try)