Kenna's Point

I read the raws.. plus with a little knowledge of Korean reading.. I can simply summarize based on what I understand..

So, basically, after Yujin's confession during high school, Siwoo felt guilty when he saw Yujin's crying.. At some point, he also felt so bad and he thought he really was a terrible person for making Yujin's crying so bad.. (At this point, Siwoo already likes Yujin, but he just doesn't realize or maybe he still not sure about his feelings, that's why he rejected Yujin)

When he grew up, he met Hyun (The Fucking Sadistic Bastard, I'm going to use TFSB after this) at his workplace which was TFSB was apparently his manager.. At first, their impressions towards each other are somehow like hate.. As usual Siwoo he is super clingy with whomever he being with, as well as with TFSB..

Then, there was a day, comes TFSB suddenly confessed to Siwoo and kissed him and wanted to go further (I mean sex).. Siwoo surprised on the situation and ran away scarily with tears flowing down his cheeks.. Then, when he ran, he bump onto The Jerk Old Man, TJOM (I don't know what position that TJOM and I don't his fucking name, let just assume TJOM was his name, haha.)

While Siwoo with TJOM.. TJOM is super great at manipulate the situation.. He said he would listened to Siwoo he currently in state of afraid on TFSB.. TJOM brought Siwoo inside the hotel and it turned out TJOM a sadistic bastard.. He rape Siwoo, after finished, he called TFSB to pick him up.. Woaww that old seriously I really want to kill him!! Haha. Okay, continued.. Oh yeah, let me remind you, along this situation, TFSB not yet a sadistic.

Then, after the incident, Siwoo become a slut. He maybe think, doing from the back is much better than the front, then he is having sex with so manyyyyy other old guys... During sex, he Yujin suddenly appeared on his mind, the day Yujin confessed to him, and accidentally said Yujin's name.. You know the others feelings when you having sex but the other suddenly said another guy name.. You suck the situation.. Then Siwoo was treated violently from all the fucking guys he being mess with.. (That's when he also realizes that he got feelings towards Yujin)

After being treated violently, Siwoo went meeting TFSB, he just cried, but inside, he felt so much sadness and guilty, he maybe thought that he supposed to accept Yujin's confession.. So that, he will happily that day.. Later then, Siwoo and TFSB being sex partner or maybe he was accepting TFSB to be his boyfriend.. Sex partner, read my word, because this 2 words about to change later but then Siwoo keep it secret.

During sex partner stage, he messing around with TFSB like kissing publicly until The Fucking Sunbae, sunbae blackmailing him.. Still, Siwoo keep refusing to have sleep with sunbae.. Then comes the day, where at some point, TFSB also had a girlfriend (that's what I think, or maybe I read it wrong,).. Siwoo felt sooooo jealous.. Ha. Ha. Ha. This is when I hate Siwoo.. I'm not sure why he is jealous, but it shows that Siwoo maybe thought that TFSB having sex with him as a replacement of that girl.. (Yeah, you can assume, this was when he have slightly love towards TFSB)..

With the jealousy, he called the sunbae to sleep with him.. Guess where they did.. Inside TFSB house.. When TFSB came home he heard and saw those two having sex in the living room as I recall, or maybe in the bedroom, I don't remember.. But Siwoo looks at TFSB with a smirk, which mean Siwoo wants to make TFSB jealous too.. I tell you he seriously make a wrong step for making TFSB jealous.. Because after sunbae leave, TFSB pull and hit Siwoo's head violently to the walls, Siwoo's head bleed so bad.. It's like TFSB turn himself from angel to demon.. He violently rape Siwoo.. (actually, on this moment, I'm on TFSB side but after the violence.. I said NO!)

The next day, Siwoo went to his best friend house looking pale but try to covered it with a poor smile.. When his friend try to pat his head as usual, Siwoo's looking so terrified, and told his friend everything about the violence he had on his everyday life with TFSB after the incident with sunbae. Then, I don't know what happen, but after that, Siwoo keep changing manager until Yujin's appeared..

Then, a happy life with Yujin also include his trauma.. Which is why he keep dreaming about that TFSB.. He is actually also want TFSB to turn back at his past self which was a caring, gentle guy..which mean, his still not over TFSB and maybe still have a bit love towards TFSB.. Yujin, who is innocently deeply in love with Siwoo, tried hus best to make Siwoo love him..