why are you reading it if it makes you worse that much? If I were you,I definitely wouldn't read that or I would stop reading.But I can see the reason why "curiosity killed the cat" lol
'Cause in the end, people have hope. In the end, people wanna see someone pass through all that and survive, and be free. 'Cause I really feel empathy for the main character. It's not about curiosity, it's about hope, I suppose.
Also, the reason that makes me feel bad it's because this history exists, that can happend, that's real. But just like reality, we can't close our eyes and just pretend it didn't exists.
Honestly, each chapter only makes me feel worse. I mean, I really hate those characters, and in the end if they will try to put him with his ex, they're horrible, and I'll hate this history more than ever! u.u