Don't think of her saying you should meet new people as a bad thing. People tend to say it when they really care for others. I told my best friend to go meet new people because I know when I'm not around she feels lonely. And to be honest with you, no one can tell you what you feel. The only thing I can suggest you is that, do not run away from your feelings. You would put more pressure on yourself. Try to talk with her about this. If she is really a good friend, or even interested in you, she will not run away.
I hope its not a terrible advice. Anyway, good luck honey!
being jealous about ur friend is totally normal and all of what you mention dosent necessary mean that you are a lesbian
liking a girl does not mean you are a lesbian you can be bi ect.
Don't you think that love doesn't have anything to do with the biological sex? Don't you love your mother? There are so many levels and kinds of love. It appears that you aren't sure yourself what kind of love you feel. So why not tell her exactly this? I don't know her but from what you write she seems to care a lot about you so she probably should understand your feelings. Perhaps she can even help you to find out yourself? All people I know are scared to be rejected. I think this is very human. I think this also has nothing to do with the biological sex.
I'm a girl and i had always been sure that i like boys but sometimes i feel like I don't have any boys that I really can be close friends with or talk to. Even when they approach me I feel bothered or pressured by them. I only want to be around with people that i can feel comfortable with and they are all girls. I never had any experience in dating and never thought of it before, but after i entered university, I started having feelings for a friend(girl)of mine. I don't really know if I really like her in a romantic or a friend kind of way. Initially, I only thought of her as a good friend but later my feelings change as we spend more time together especially during my first year second semester. She always puts her arm around my shoulder and caresses my hair and I always feel happy when she does it. She also took care of me and slept over at my house when i was sick(I'm studying somewhere far so my parents could not help me). I want her to always be with me and I always feel hurt when she gets closer to other friends. I feel like i won't be seeing much of her after our third semester cus our subjects and classes will be different later on. I don't want someone else to take my place and i know that i'm being selfish. I want to tell her about my feelings for her but i feel like she doesn't
like me the same way I like her. She's always saying that i'm small and treats me like a kid. She tells me to make more new friends and it makes me think that I'm a bother to her. I'm scared of being rejected and i'm afraid that i will never meet someone like her again.