Idk how to feel

I'm not necessarily saying that this manga was bad, but I had a hard time reading this manga the plot for this was OK with the amount of rape and cliches I've, I'm read pretty used to it, but I can't get over the fact that the uke literally embarassed the seme for being.. A VIRGIN in that one mixer chapter, sorry after that bullshit I've just been skipping and skimming throughout all these chapters because I didn't wanna read a story about a douche bag uke, but I kind of wanted to see if the seme said something about it. OH AND they just pushed it aside like "uke I love you no matter how much bullshit you gave me" end of conclusion.