Help Please

From what I am understanding with your situation is that you have strong feelings for her, but she doesn't know this?
It's torturing for you, but since she doesn't know this, so she cannot be blamed for it.

If you really cannot endure your current situation, then u have to move on or else you will become too depressed. From what I see, your choice is to confess or to give up your feelings.

Confessing could lead to acceptance or rejection. I do not know much about how strong your relationship with her, so I cannot judge it. If you get accepted, then good for you. If you get rejected, there are lots of possible results; she may me the kind/ accepting type that stays friends with you (1), she could be the type that doesn't want to acquainted with ppl who confesses because of the awkwardness (2), or she could also be the type that brushes it off (3). There may be other results that I do not know, but those are some that comes from the top of my head.

Basically, what I am saying is that you need to be prepared for the consequences of altering your current relationship with her if you confess. It will be very difficult to return from the way it was, but it is also not impossible.

Think carefully about the scales here. You're hurting rn. If you take action, it could hurt and you could regret confessing, but time will continue and you could move on. If you stay the way it is, you are just delaying things and hurting yourself more, but at least you could be with her.
Which is more important. Your relationship with a girl or your emotional state.

I was in an unrequited love for 4 years. It was painful, but it is not impossible to move on. I have also met and spoken to people who had an unrequited love, but stood strong and became brave to get the right timing and do things that caused the other to fall for them.

I am not sure how strong your feelings are, or what kind of person you are, or what kind the other person is, or strong your interactions and relationship are...but I want you to think carefully and put things in a scale and decide what you think is the best course of action is. I am a practical person, so I have this mindset, but I believe that this is better than panicking and getting confused.

I wish you luck on whatever decisions you make, and what outcome happens to that decision of yours. In the end, I can only tell you that time is precious. How you use up that time is up to you. Hopefully, I made things clearer for you.

I want you to think about the importance of your values, relationships, emotions, etc.

I do not know if I was helpful or not, and I am sorry for making you read such a long reply, but I wish you luck with your problem.

If you don't confess or tell her your feelings then she doesn't know what you see in her and it's normal to be jealous. But if you just want to stay friends only then you shouldn't be worrying about who you are to her unless you want to be or in a long distance relationship.

How can you say so many understandable things in such a short paragraph?! ╥﹏╥

You have talked on a daily basis for over a year, and she does´t even wish u good luck on your exams... She seems like an indifferent person, sorry if that upsets you, I don´t know her, obviously, and I don´t mean to be rude, just my opinion based on your description. >.<

There is an easy test you can to, stop talking to her daily and see what happens. I´m in a long distant relationship and it´s not easy, however communication is key, both parts have to make an effort. So, my questions to you, "Are you the one who always starts the conversation?" "Do you feel like you are making more effort then her to make the conversation flowing or going or something?"

First of all, thank you for taking out time to read my long post and then sincerely replying and offering your advice. I am really grateful.
Since she lives in a different country, there is really no chances of a relationship and I know she doesn't feel the same way about me and even if she did in the future it would be futile. So a romantic relationship with her was never my aim and neither it is.
It's just that even friends can be special and I am not even sure if I am that or not ugh.
But yes. Your advice has been great. And time is indeed precious. I will think about all the things you mentioned. Thanks a ton. It helped me out a lot><
I had just been waiting to fall out of love but it's been too long so :(

It was really helpful. I can't explain how grateful I am. Thank you. TT TT

I don't plan on confessing><
But even as a friend I am worried if I am the only one who cares about her and she doesn't about me? ;;

You aren't being rude. She is a bit insensitive? But I know she cares about people but she just doesn't show it much. Which is the issue sigh
Yeah, I think I'll have to do that. Will give me time to think this through too.
Thank you for replying TT TT

Thank you for replying. I appreciate it a lot TT TT

As a person that can kind of relate to her, I don't think it's a good idea to confess.
I have a friend (who is also from India lol) who always listen to me when I complain/cry/ get hurt. He is the only place I can talk in without calculation of my words. He is a comfortable place for me.
If you are not interested in romantic relationship then don't do something stupid that will make her lose her comfortable zone.
Since she is insensitive to you she might hurt you alot and you might give more than you take but don't you think that might be enough for you too? You are needed by her. And she need you. Its not a romantic relationship but it is a deep relationship that is hard to get. Don't lose it.

I can relate so much to this to a point I feel like you are talking about me lol. That is why I am saying this in her defence please try to understand her. She is not a perfect person as you may have seen in her past actions but she is just not good at expressing herself, and you are someone that can understand that, so don't make her lose you...

Also it is okay to act clingy, that will make her feel loved and as for starting conversations! Some people are just bad at it so it doesn't matter if you or she started them first.
Since you talk daily doesn't that mean you mean so much to her too? Even if she doesn't show it, I think she doesn't want to hurt you or cause pain to you.
Try talking it through with her, sometimes a simple communication is enough to get it through to the other person

Thank you so much for replying.
I have never wanted to confess. I won't do that.
She does hurt me. And I do give more than I take, bcuz she doesn't give anything more haha, atleast from my side of things. Is it enough for me? I don't think so. Bcuz if it was I wouldn't be in so much agony. I am not even trying to think of a things in a romantic manner. But as a friend. All that I have done and said was as a friend. But I sometimes feel that I am just another person to her? And that makes me hurt.
I know she isn't perfect and I understand her. But isn't that too much to ask of me? When sometimes her careless words make me cry the whole night?

Starting conversations isn't the issue here thankfully
Hmm you are right I guess so. Yes, I know that.
I don't know how to explain this mess to her ><

Try this method I usually use when it's hard telling someone about themselves.
The first method is telling them you got into fight with your other friend and when she ask why, tell her what she did to you as if that friend of yours done it. If shes not dense this way will work.

Try this second method if she didn't ask you the reason, act like you are of no part of the situation and start talking hypothetically. Like "what do you think about girls that take a guy for granted and never intend on giving anything in return" or something like that.
To her it will seem like a random conversation you are starting.
But if she have a bit tiny bit of self reflecting she'll probably try to fix herself.
That way you won't be the bad guy telling her to fix herself and she won't feel you are needy and troublesome to handle... Or so I hope :)

Good luck I hope you feel better soon

I am a girl (=・ω・=)(≧∀≦)
I will think about trying these out soon!
Thank you so much for listening to me and trying to help me. Bless you.

Lol sorry I thought you were a guy since you said romantic relationship and such xD sorry

I feel you don't plan on confessing and want to stay as friends then that's fine but if it hurts too much to talk to her because of your feelings towards her then it's best to stop talking and let your feelings fade. I know it sounds easy but it's not, it depends on how much you really want to give up and not be hurt.

I've also been in an unrequited love many times to where I've been rejected, emotionally hurt and have given up so that I won't be hurt no more. Sad thing is you can't force someone to love you when they don't, even if they act like it or say those words it's just an empty feelings and it will just hurt u more.

Haha no issues XD I should have mentioned it in the question