Even though the raping (most likely repeatedly) and the bullying were more than enough reasons for Siwon to commit suicide, I've been thinking that might have not been what really drove him to do it. After seeing his personality in the recent chapters, I really believe he would have suffered it silently and wouldn't have considered to jump in front of a bus because of it. Let me make myself clear: those would REALLY be reasons to drive a person to that point of desperation, I'm not trying in any way to underestimate them.
But I've been thinking, it probably was that he thought that the only way for Jiwook to be happy was if he wasn't around. I'm just speculating, but I feel like after the raping he realized that it was his own brother, that knew about it al along, and instead of hating him for it, he probably felt guilty. Guilty of "making his brother so miserable he would even do that". Jiwook was the most important person for Siwon, so if by existing he was making him miserable, he would rather disappear and let him be happy.
What I'm trying to say is, he probably would have endured it if he thought that by doing so he was helping his brother, but when he realized the hatred Jiwook felt, it was all meaningless, so he didn't have a reason to endure anything anymore. And it really breaks my heart when I think about it. Siwon my little sunshine didn't deserve that, not one bit.
Even though the raping (most likely repeatedly) and the bullying were more than enough reasons for Siwon to commit suicide, I've been thinking that might have not been what really drove him to do it. After seeing his personality in the recent chapters, I really believe he would have suffered it silently and wouldn't have considered to jump in front of a bus because of it. Let me make myself clear: those would REALLY be reasons to drive a person to that point of desperation, I'm not trying in any way to underestimate them.
But I've been thinking, it probably was that he thought that the only way for Jiwook to be happy was if he wasn't around. I'm just speculating, but I feel like after the raping he realized that it was his own brother, that knew about it al along, and instead of hating him for it, he probably felt guilty. Guilty of "making his brother so miserable he would even do that". Jiwook was the most important person for Siwon, so if by existing he was making him miserable, he would rather disappear and let him be happy.
What I'm trying to say is, he probably would have endured it if he thought that by doing so he was helping his brother, but when he realized the hatred Jiwook felt, it was all meaningless, so he didn't have a reason to endure anything anymore. And it really breaks my heart when I think about it. Siwon my little sunshine didn't deserve that, not one bit.