Im feeling so conflicted right now. I was hating Hyunwoo and was ready for Subin to move on from him but after getting a chapter from Hyunwoo's perspective...it compicates my feelings. I know that having a relationship with Hyung would probably be best...but I still feel there is a lot unspoken between Hyunwoo and Subin. Maybe I'll feel better if they were to talk things out for once. I want Hyunwoo to really communicate with Subin and to apologize. I want him to share his emotions and help Subin understand him better. But I also want him to listen to Subin and acknowledge his feelings and his pain. Its difficult to see Hyunwoos side because he struggled and everyone around him could tell he had feelings for somebody else/ Subin but he was so nervous, self conscious, and scared about living his life and connecting to others emotionally. He tried to fit into a role he thought would be easier, he was scared. I can't say anything bad on him for that. Korea is more conservative than where I live so I imagine it would be difficult. Also, Hyunwoo is moving at his own pace to understand his sexuality. If anything it is our societies fault for hurting these children that don't easily fit into one box/ for allowing them to be confused and in pain because of peoples selfishness. Hyunwoo made many mistakes and he hurt Subin so much and I think he knows that... I just need closure between them.
Im feeling so conflicted right now. I was hating Hyunwoo and was ready for Subin to move on from him but after getting a chapter from Hyunwoo's perspective...it compicates my feelings. I know that having a relationship with Hyung would probably be best...but I still feel there is a lot unspoken between Hyunwoo and Subin. Maybe I'll feel better if they were to talk things out for once. I want Hyunwoo to really communicate with Subin and to apologize. I want him to share his emotions and help Subin understand him better. But I also want him to listen to Subin and acknowledge his feelings and his pain. Its difficult to see Hyunwoos side because he struggled and everyone around him could tell he had feelings for somebody else/ Subin but he was so nervous, self conscious, and scared about living his life and connecting to others emotionally. He tried to fit into a role he thought would be easier, he was scared. I can't say anything bad on him for that. Korea is more conservative than where I live so I imagine it would be difficult. Also, Hyunwoo is moving at his own pace to understand his sexuality. If anything it is our societies fault for hurting these children that don't easily fit into one box/ for allowing them to be confused and in pain because of peoples selfishness. Hyunwoo made many mistakes and he hurt Subin so much and I think he knows that... I just need closure between them.