The uke apologizes to his girlfriend, not for being late, but because he can't fight his feelings for the seme and he will break up with her. That's why it says "I can't escape anymore." It hit him, finally, that he can't escape the feelings he has in his heart. He even admits that he only dated her to "feel secure" and their sex life was going nowhere fast. This is classic "closeting" rationale and behavior. He even has to chant that he "Likes Yuka(sp)" like a mantra when he is around the seme. That is a BAD sign. If you have to "remind yourself" who you like/love, you're doing it wrong. It's painfully obvious where his heart truly lies and it's not with the girl.
The uke apologizes to his girlfriend, not for being late, but because he can't fight his feelings for the seme and he will break up with her. That's why it says "I can't escape anymore." It hit him, finally, that he can't escape the feelings he has in his heart. He even admits that he only dated her to "feel secure" and their sex life was going nowhere fast. This is classic "closeting" rationale and behavior. He even has to chant that he "Likes Yuka(sp)" like a mantra when he is around the seme. That is a BAD sign. If you have to "remind yourself" who you like/love, you're doing it wrong. It's painfully obvious where his heart truly lies and it's not with the girl.