Looking for

Hey guys I'm looking for yaoi that I read long time ago. The story is about 2 highschool boys. One of them are pretty, he want to be a girl so bad and sometime he hate or get jealous of girls because girls can get boys easly. This boy likes his friend (seme) but too afraid that he will reject him. But actually the seme likes him back. In the beginning it seems that the uke wore a girl clothes with a long hair an ruined lipsticks and also he's crying. I was trying to figure it out but at the end I cant.