That last chapter hes desperate to show him hes the only one that it meant nothing that everyone means nothing .yet doesnt know how to convey it ( hes so nee to all that) he is so use to depriving himself from feeling due and remorse now hes feeling all that and somehow trying not to loose himself. Yet u can tell he knows he fucked up and caused pain to him but still would do it if it means he wouldnt touch lin again
That last chapter hes desperate to show him hes the only one that it meant nothing that everyone means nothing .yet doesnt know how to convey it ( hes so nee to all that) he is so use to depriving himself from feeling due and remorse now hes feeling all that and somehow trying not to loose himself. Yet u can tell he knows he fucked up and caused pain to him but still would do it if it means he wouldnt touch lin again