wow!! its almost like relationships that stem from an unhealthy amount of dependency added on w a sick twisted piece of shit who really needs to get check and put on some meds and also be put in therapy because hes a genuine threat to the people around him - relationships like this would never end well. i would know.
anyway. hyeok really deserves better, im ngl that whole two years was js filled w all forms of abuse, sexual abuse, emotional abuse, psychological abuse, physical abuse (that coincides w the sexual stuff). but when youre dependent on someone and you whole heartedly believe youre in love w them, its hard to hate them. because then you start to feel guilty for hating them (most likely a result of psychological abuse / taking away love when you dont perform well, love bombing at other times and js generally playing w his feelings)
also it fucking sucks because losing the person you were dependent on feels like dying, it feels like youre going to die. because theyre literally your only source of emotional support and literally everything else. but building up a support system separate from them and slowly building up your self of sense that isnt linked to them is great, works 70% of the time. the other 30% is prob because theyve come back to interfere with your life or you werent able to establish a strong enough support system that could meet your emotional needs and/or you rely on this person financially and youd basically be put outta a home if you defy them (which is worse cause scenario)
i js kept yapping and idk what point im tryna make. anyway, become dependent on someone then they becoming dependent on you is scary. honestly just take a whole bottle of pills together and overdose. you dont wake up to the absurdity of it all until something extreme happens or some event sparks a realization. otherwise, its all a painfully slow way of dying. ur soul / sense of self i mean, not literally dying but in some cases literally dying.
wow!! its almost like relationships that stem from an unhealthy amount of dependency added on w a sick twisted piece of shit who really needs to get check and put on some meds and also be put in therapy because hes a genuine threat to the people around him - relationships like this would never end well. i would know.
anyway. hyeok really deserves better, im ngl that whole two years was js filled w all forms of abuse, sexual abuse, emotional abuse, psychological abuse, physical abuse (that coincides w the sexual stuff). but when youre dependent on someone and you whole heartedly believe youre in love w them, its hard to hate them. because then you start to feel guilty for hating them (most likely a result of psychological abuse / taking away love when you dont perform well, love bombing at other times and js generally playing w his feelings)
also it fucking sucks because losing the person you were dependent on feels like dying, it feels like youre going to die. because theyre literally your only source of emotional support and literally everything else. but building up a support system separate from them and slowly building up your self of sense that isnt linked to them is great, works 70% of the time. the other 30% is prob because theyve come back to interfere with your life or you werent able to establish a strong enough support system that could meet your emotional needs and/or you rely on this person financially and youd basically be put outta a home if you defy them (which is worse cause scenario)
i js kept yapping and idk what point im tryna make. anyway, become dependent on someone then they becoming dependent on you is scary. honestly just take a whole bottle of pills together and overdose. you dont wake up to the absurdity of it all until something extreme happens or some event sparks a realization. otherwise, its all a painfully slow way of dying. ur soul / sense of self i mean, not literally dying but in some cases literally dying.