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IT GETS BETTER. I WAS JUST SOOOO GLAD I DROPPED THIS WHEN I WAS READING IT AROUND MARCH WHERE THERE ARE ONLY 7 CHAPS THAT WAS SCANNED. I PICKED THIS UP AROUND WEEKS AGO AND BOIII WAS I GLAD I DID.

I hate how they started with their relationship, but daaaang the ending of the first arc was qt afff (=・ω・=)

imma gonna do a review as to why this was okay for me. And this is gonna be hella long
(I made this review days ago for another site. But here goes:)
Idk what I felt when I read this at 6 am without proper sleep that night (maybe I was feelng a little bit sentimental?) but I gave it a chance anyway and read it until the latest update (chap 18). I think I read this around March when it still had 7 chapters. I didn't really follow the manga and just kept checking it's latest updates. Kinda forgot about it and it released a new chapter today and read it out of curiosity. And I tell you, I have no regrets reading this one.
It had the premise that I really hated: rape as a start of relationship. I hated Hidoku Shinaide at first unti the succeeding chapters, but I was really curious of the story but a voice in my head kept hating every chapter of it. I had to read a chapter around vol 5 in advance just to convince myself that it gets better. And my hatred started to dissipate when the mangaka FINALLY opened the topic as how Maya and Nemu's relationship started. AND IT TOOK HER 6 VOLUMES TO DO IT.

BUT THIS MANHWA. THIS GOLDMINE MANHWA WAS DIFFERENT. You could really see Hyung-Jo being apologetic just after their relationship started. Personally, Minjae is such an ideal uke. He's a wuss, but he has courage at the same time. Also, he doesn't blame Hyung-Jo at all, but he doesn't spoil Hyung-Jo too much and wants to be treated with care (unlike some uke who'll just say: Whatever you do to me is okay like WTF BRUHHH TREASURE YOURSELF A LI'L BIT, YEAH??) That was why when Minjae said "Just treat me with care, okay?" I WAS LIKE BROOO I LIKE YOU ALREADYYY. AND I LOVE MINJAE WHEN EVEN THOUGH HYUNGJO IS KIND TO HIM AND ALL, MINJAE IS STILL CONSIDERATE TOWARDS HYUNGJO!!! Minjae has this one redeeming character towards the series: he doesn't want to hurt people to the point that he would lie. [spoiler] a) when he kept it a secret from Hyungjo that Hyung was actually active in his sex life + he bats for the other team lol AND b) when they had sex in Behind Story 2 when Hyungjo asked Minjae if the sex was good, his thoughts were "it's a little tiring" but he didn't say it out loud and said that "It was very good". [/spoiler] I love it when Minjae doesn't abuse/take advantage of Hyungjo's kindness.

And I love it when he's reactions are realistic. [spoiler] When Hyungjo started avoiding him bc he was ashamed of his past actions, he wasn't insecure and didn't get mad at Hyungjo (unlike mediocre ukes out there). Instead, he comforted Hyungjo and told him that they're okay. He is such an uke I love him <3 [/spoiler]
And I loooove how he isn't a tsundere that would keep saying "No" (when it's reallyy obvious that some uke are just bashful) after they got in a relationship. I think that's the reason why Hyung-Jo would take his rejection seriously and would stop the moment Minjae would show even the least bit of resistance. AND THE SEME I SWEAR. ASIDE FROM HIS ANGER ISSUES (and obliviousness), HYUNG JO IS THE IDEAL SEME. Because a) He doesn't force (after their relationship started, of course lol) Minjae. b) He would tease Minjae at first but if Minjae doesn't like it, he'll stop, apologize, and say "I'm kidding" c) He forgives himself but he doesn't forget what he did to Minjae at first d) He spoils Minjae. e) He's sincere and not calculative f) He's not one of those sadistic ruts that likes it if their uke would cry. He would even ask Minjae "please stop crying" because he doesn't want his loved one to be hurt and MOST IMPORTANTLY, HE TREATS MINJAE WITH UTMOST CARE!!! I JUST LOVE HIM AS A SEME!!! WHEN MINJAE WOULD SAY THAT HE'S (even just a little bit!!!) SCARED, HE'LL DO EVERYTHING JUST TO COMFORT MINJAE!!! [spoiler] WHEN MINJAE SAID THAT HE WAS SCARED IN DOING A BACKSIDE POSITION (idk what position it's called lolol just when the uke facing the bed and the seme tops the bottom) AND CRIED, HYUNG-JO WAS REALLYYYY WORRIED AND PULLED OUT!!! AND HE WAS REALLY APOLOGETIC WHEN THE REASON WHY MINJAE WAS SCARED WAS BECAUSE HE RAPED HIM A FEW CHAPS AGO!!! AND ALSO WHEN HYUNGJO MENTIONED THAT HE WANTED TO LOCK MINJAE UP BC HE'S JUST TOO CUTE, MINJAE LAUGHED AND SAID IT'S A LITTLE SCARY, HE TOOK BACK HIS WORDS AND SAID THAT HE DOESN'T REALLY MEAN WHAT HE JUST SAID AND SAID HE'S SORRY!!!!! [/spoiler]

I hate "cool" semes who won't lose their "coolness" even in the middle of sex with uke. And I also don't like wimp semes who can't even protect their uke. It's a perfect balance for Hyungjo lol. In terms of the uke, I hate ukes who are too bashful with their feelings all over the place. But I also don't like ukes who are stronger than their seme lol. Minjae was a perfect uke because his reactions are realistic and he knows how to react to Hyungjo lol. Maybe that's why I love this manga soooo much because the seme and the uke are both ideals to their role! This manhwa is probably one of those asian comics where I don't mind if their not a reversible couple (I'm a fan of seke couples!!!!!)

EUHHH IT'S JUST TOO CUTE WHEN SEMES SPOIL THEIR UKE AND TREAT THEM WITH UTMOST CARE!!!! I CAN'T GET ENOUGH WITH THIS MANHWA!!!

To summarize: READ IT BECAUSE IT GETS F BETTER!!!! (+ the updates are fast, courtesy of Random Fujoshis hehe kudos to you guys!!!!)