I wish I could like this comment but so true! It’s realistic how self aware he is. I’ve read so many works where it is often brushed off and this is a welcome development in yaoi. That’s why I haven’t dropped this despite how questionable it is
Same, I would have already dropped this by now, and I honestly hope that it continues on this path and addresses the issues in the story much better than previous similar manhwas.
I won't spoiled you but if you read the novel you will see that it's more like a murder standing and a lack of communication which lead to all of this
Jesus Christ this is fucked up and I'm here for it. Honestly, the fact the main character is self aware of being a horrible person and hates himself for it is what makes me stay. It's not brushing off his bad actions, it's not like "oh, hehe cute, shroud all the bad things in happiness, let's try to justify this". It's just cold hard reality and I'm here for it. Alexei is a shitty person, he knows he is, and I'm very curious as to how this will play out and what Alexei will do by the end of the story.