I'm also here, crying again at 3 AM, over two fictional characters. It has been a long time since I've read anything of this calibre, from wanting Annette to free herself in the beginning, and wishing Heiner nothing but despair... to genuinely wishing for the best for both of them. Together or not, they've suffered too much. They've had to deal with too much pain, and they deserve a chance at happiness. Yes, I still blame Heiner for Annette's misery... because, in the end, he's the one who placed expectations on her, put her on a pedestal, and then condemned her for his suffering. I like how she acknowledges that her happiness was a lie because it was built on sorrow, but I also don't blame her for Heiner's shallow understanding of her.
Honestly... I wish Annette had tried understanding him at least once during their 'happy' years together. I can't blame Heiner for falling into despair and forcing himself to believe everything is an illusion and that Annette's love for him couldn't be real, but I also can't blame Annette for not wanting to know him deeply, afraid of the consequences of knowing...
Would they have found true happiness? Who knows, but all I can say is that I genuinely wish for them to be happy, together or not. It looks like they'll end together and... I don't mind that at all. Sorry if this doesn't make much sense, it's 3 AM and there are too many feelings at the moment... I don't think I explained very well everything I wanted to say but I hope it resonates with someone else.
I'm also here, crying again at 3 AM, over two fictional characters. It has been a long time since I've read anything of this calibre, from wanting Annette to free herself in the beginning, and wishing Heiner nothing but despair... to genuinely wishing for the best for both of them. Together or not, they've suffered too much. They've had to deal with too much pain, and they deserve a chance at happiness. Yes, I still blame Heiner for Annette's misery... because, in the end, he's the one who placed expectations on her, put her on a pedestal, and then condemned her for his suffering. I like how she acknowledges that her happiness was a lie because it was built on sorrow, but I also don't blame her for Heiner's shallow understanding of her.
Honestly... I wish Annette had tried understanding him at least once during their 'happy' years together. I can't blame Heiner for falling into despair and forcing himself to believe everything is an illusion and that Annette's love for him couldn't be real, but I also can't blame Annette for not wanting to know him deeply, afraid of the consequences of knowing...
Would they have found true happiness? Who knows, but all I can say is that I genuinely wish for them to be happy, together or not. It looks like they'll end together and... I don't mind that at all. Sorry if this doesn't make much sense, it's 3 AM and there are too many feelings at the moment... I don't think I explained very well everything I wanted to say but I hope it resonates with someone else.