Please help meee, i amm cryinngg

I just recently found this story about a villianess streaming, she had a black hair and maybe blue or just grey eyess, i want to read it but i forgot its title huhu.. in the story she was a game developer and realize the villianess die way too easily so she started seeing if there is a problem but suddenly she was transmigrated to the gods i forgot... and then she woke up by the water where his father ordered them to wake her up after drinking a lot just because of a cancel arranged marriage and so all and soo forth, i know that the villianess girl is unlove by parents in past and present and she had to be the biggest channel ofcourse since she is a villianess streamer and to be a villianess streamer she had to act like a villian but by how she acts as i remember is kind of like a i dont care vibe and trauma vibe, and some depressed stories about craving attention from someone who is always bias.. like loving the other while the other not but just PLEASEEE HELP MEE... ITS MY FIRST TIMEE THAT I CRIED FOR THAT FREAKING STORYYY (I read it on a computer and forgot to sign in but stilll help meere huhuhuhuu)