This world only values you if you have good looks or money.
I'm sorry you're feeling this way I understand because I feel it too. I also struggle with an inferiority complex. There's a classmate of mine. She's beautiful, talented, studying abroad, rich and I can't help but feel like a loser in comparison. Like a stalker I check her Snap stories every day
I'm living a hard life but I still believe that a beautiful soul will one day receive something even more wonderful than they ever expected.
And I truly wish you have a wonderful time ahead ＼(^_^)／
Older sister here. I think overall you should treat yourself better n give yourself breaks sometimes. The first thing u should unlearn is doing things to prove yourself to others and doing things to impress others. Both socially and in romantic relationships.
The best way to deal w narcissistic ppl is ignoring them n not feeding any emotions nor reactions to them. Learn how to detach and live for yourself. But most importantly, you have to learn to feel comfortable being alone, being by yourself to appreciate n love yourself better.
As much as men r dumb af, they can still see your insecurities n weaknesses, if you can't even respect yourself n stand by your boundaries n values, they will never respect you back. The fact that he spoke n treated you that way is an evident of him not giving a fuck n not sacred of losing you.
Omg I just came back and saw these comments. Thank you, I sincerely hope for your inferiority complex be gone also and I hope you'll find someone who'll love you for who you are
Thank you for this advice. I just finished working rn and I feel positive by what you said. I'm actually trying to reward myself but at the same time I couldn't because I have to buy my parents what they need (medicine, taxes, APE, etc.) so I can't really afford to travel. I do hope I can save money and relax myself outside the province soon. Thank you very much, your little siblings probably are happy because you're their older sister
"Inferiority Complex", "Jealousy/Envy"
Yes mc, I actually do understand and it's really valid for you to feel that way. Also, the fact that all ppl around him praise Jearim bc of his "talent" and hate mc is just saddd.
I actually experience this shit where they praise other ppl (my older sister) in front of you. I grew up with a beautiful sister (but she's actually not kind, she's a narcissist) but ppl love her, while I'm just an average looking person. I'm a latin honor in my college, I worked hard just for people to notice me. Yet, my older sister who's the most loved and not socially awkward person was the center of attention everytime... Everytime I walk past my neighborhood, they just smiled awkwardly at me and never talked to me.. Then with my sister, they smiled brightly and communicates with her. To them I feel like an air just passing by and it hurts.
When I had my first lover, we talk to each other and he's actually one of my neighbor... One day, we were just casually talking then he suddenly shifted the topic to my sister, asking me what is she doing or is she working etc. for me, it hurts my heart not just because he's my boyfriend and he should not ask about other women esp my sister. My heart hurts because he only saw me as an opportunity to know my sister well. I'm glad I never tolerated these actions. But it hurts so much how people praise my sister (yes, she liked being praised and she always says I'm ugly and she's beautiful. She likes ppl's praises) in front of my face and that feel like a heavy slap in my face. That's why I developed these inferiority complex and I became awkward and silent because I just accepted these treatment of ppl as a part of my life. Ik it's a drama lmao back to mc. I do understand him so much and the fact that he just quietly thinks about his frustrations just makes me sad bc that's how I also do it. Also, can Jaerim give him space? He literally saw mc and heard not to bother him... I hate these kind of ppl who're insensitive...