i am just thinking about how much sick in your head a person needs to be in an amazed way ...

i am just thinking about how much sick in your head a person needs to be in an amazed way that you end up creating this sh*t like living together in fwb kinda manner with the guy who r*ped you and made you change your whole sexuality and cheating on him and admitting it openly and enduring all the abuse and getting turned on by that sh*t. i mean cant even predict the next scene (wierdly annoyingly impressed)