Can I ask for a favor?

It's basically just our mc wanting to die and the blonde guy trying to save him and collect his reactions like pokemon (￣∇￣")

Might be triggering but it almost seemed like the blond guy was encouraging me to do it. Really wary of him now.

The flashback of how Blondie and Seong Ha meet. Blondie walks in on Seong Ha in the bathroom crying cuz he can't bring himself to sleep with the old man. Blondie offers to help Seong Ha for a kiss which Seong Ha instantly does. Seong Ha gives the old man head and Blondie walks in on them video taping them to black mail the old man. Then Seong Ha tries to jump off the balcony but Blondie catches him in time.

Later Seong Ha tried to hang himself but his secretary saved him. His asshole father comes yelling how he couldn't even himself properly in front of Blondie who gets excited at discovering the source of Seong Ha's "perfect" mask. Later again Seong Ha goes on vacation and tries to starve himself to death. Blondie got the secretary to let him in to find Seong Ha in time. When Seong Ha wakes up Blondie tells him he needs to successfully get his father's acknowledgement first then he can kill himself in front of his father and others in a dramatic way.

Few years go by and Seong Ha is utterly perfect until Jeonsu comes back into Seong Ha's life. Now Blondie is getting to see all kinds of new expressions on Seong Ha's face.

Jeonsu tries to train with dildos for when he and Seong Ha finally go all the way after he finishes an important job, but he fails and ends up just masturbating. Since Blondie stalks Seong Ha so thoroughly he knows exactly what the asshole father is making Seong Ha do and calls Jeonsu presumably to save Seong Ha and tells him to"come to this location alone." Which of course Jeonsu does. Ch 61 ends with Jeonsu arriving where Blondie told him.