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One thing that was greatly missed was Kaito’s pov and how he came to realize his feelings for Nagisa since it felt a bit rushed. Would have liked an additional chapter at the end
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One thing that was greatly missed was Kaito’s pov and how he came to realize his feelings for Nagisa since it felt a bit rushed. Would have liked an additional chapter at the end
Nagisa wanted to have sex with Kaito as punishment is probs bc he felt like he tried to take Minato from Kaito by confessing first. He saw himself as a thief that needed punishment bc in his mind Kaito is so amazing that Minato will definitely fall in love with him. So, he wanted to sleep with Kaito as a substitute for Minato or as loveless/painful sex bc unconsciously he has always loved Kaito and wanted to sleep with him. So, by having sex with Kaito who doesn’t love him and would only be doing it out of revenge, he will hurt himself deeply since he’s in love with Kaito. He also did feel like Minato dying was his fault due to Kaito’s words so that was another reason he felt he owed Kaito.
And I think him sleeping with random men was also self punishment. For him it meant he would never sleep with the one he loves since he felt he didn’t deserve happiness. Although this was all unconscious thoughts and actions since he wasn’t aware he love Kaito and wanted to be Minato who he saw as equally as great at Kaito. Minato was his god, the perfect version of himself he wished he could be who would match well with Kaito.