"What do I want from her" See, you have to let her know what you've felt and done in the past, about how her father was a shithead, about the people died in your hands, maybe she'll do something about it and start donations, charity, she WILL NEVER UNDERSTAND BUT she's not a terrible person. she didn't go to the pain you go through, make her think about it, be honest about your past, and we'll know whether if she still wants stay with u or not, just let her know because you're walking around circles trying to make sense what you're doing.
"What do I want from her" See, you have to let her know what you've felt and done in the past, about how her father was a shithead, about the people died in your hands, maybe she'll do something about it and start donations, charity, she WILL NEVER UNDERSTAND BUT she's not a terrible person. she didn't go to the pain you go through, make her think about it, be honest about your past, and we'll know whether if she still wants stay with u or not, just let her know because you're walking around circles trying to make sense what you're doing.