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1) MC has trauma from being sexually abused as a child, losing his parents and having terrible heart issues that induce seizures. That makes him have extreme low self-esteem, being guarded against anything and anyone, fear of being abandoned, and of course being unsafe physically. ML got obsessed, stalked the MC in a very intrusive yet protective and accepting way that led to them becoming a couple and 3) genuinely loving or at least being incredibly emotionally dependant on each other, depends on your concept of love honestly. However, MC would eventually have to get out of his shell to become his own person, and ML would eventually have to trust and hope for the better for MC in order to have a healthy balanced relationship. ML was reluctant to this changes out of fear, both worrying about the ML's health and partly because of losing the closeness they had gone through so much pain to develop. But MC pushed through even when ML didn't support him, and ended up in a team of really kind and helpfull coworkers, so he started to grow as a person, feeling worthy and having more self-steem and social relationships, while ML was going down the opposite path in his shit job and his growing lack of control over everything and everyone. This was accompanied by this of MC losing control of his body during and after seizures, and ML taking those times to touch him sexually (disturbing af), both relieving MC, giving him the feeling of being supported and loved being denied all his agency in the middle of his agony, and giving way into giving the green light for further erasure of the line between consent and abuse. ML was extremely negative thinking the worse possibilities of anything, planning ahead about how to climb his carreer in a toxic and destructive job environment to make enough money to support MC economically so he could be safe at home. This crucial disagreement made the MC resent the overprotectiveness and lack of support of the ML, and the ML resented the ungratefullness and self-harming stubborness of the MC.

2) Stress and overwhelemed by all the thing mentioned in 1), and of course being an impulsive bastard (as exemplified for being so quick to act on violence or non-consensual acts and inmediately regretting it, breaking down for forgiveness over and over again.) Also, I think he thought he was already dirty from even lusting after MC, as each time he felt like he was putting pressure on someone he saw as extremely fragile, yet didn't control his impulses at all, so dirtying himself a little bit in one night no one will know about could not make things any worse.

3) Answered in 1.

4) MC vs his illnesses, his self-perception, being in a vicious abusive cycle, his abandonment and sexual trauma, navigating a cynical job where his whole team is not appriciated nor liked by their higher ups. And ML vs his impulsivity, his obssesive and hyper-protective tendencies, his anger issues, and his self-sacrificing stubborness working in a toxic and abusive job environment. This story is composed of very complex character studies of basically all reoccurring characters, the conflict is life being a bitch.

You did such a great and complete analysis

Omg this is really well written thank you

Thank you for the independence analysis!

So Ml doesn’t love the MC :(

Does the story have a happy ending of any kind? I don’t think I can read this if the ending is sad…or if the ML doesn’t love him/change and regret everything he did

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MC and ML end up together, and everything seems hopefull. It's a little bit strange with how MC and his boss (the hot one, not the adorable one) were implied to love each other (even kissed as a goodbye in front of ML lmao) but both decided to leave it platonic and stay with their respective partners. Dunno the details about the ML's regret arc since I don't know Korean, just skimmed through all the raws.

Love each other??

1. How many chapters in total of raws?
2. What hot guy? Which chapter is he in?

And kissed right in front of ML? Erm…alrighty then! :D
Why did they decide to be platonic? Kissing and then going off to their partners is weird but that’s just my opinion.

More concerning that MC and ML are endgame but it’s also realistic.

Looks like most of you are reading the raw version from free sites. If that’s the case, you’re missing the revised ending and several side stories after the epilogue. If you wanna know exactly how it ends, keep reading…







Basically, the ending stays the same, but new scenes was added to explain how the 3 of them ended up that way. The boss straight up proposed to the BF that he wanted to have sex with MC, but he had no intention of taking care of MC for the rest of his life because he's not into commitment. In exchange, he offered to keep the BF updated on MC’s health and told him to come back to take care of MC whenever necessary. The BF agreed, feeling guilty and also not wanting to lose his chance with MC.

So, they end up in this weird 3-way arrangement: MC and the boss casually date and have sex from time to time. Whenever MC starts showing signs of a panic attack and needs someone around, the boss calls the BF, who comes over, and yeah, they have sex too. This continues for some time (months, years, I'm not really sure) until the boss decides to work abroad and officially says goodbye to MC. After that, MC tells the BF something along the lines of now they're even when it comes to cheating, and they get back together.

Damn, why is there so much cheating in this manwha

What the fuck is this shit . I’m someone who detests cheating so I feel this is as bad as missing love (bad as in angst).

So did MC break up with ML while he was having sex with the boss?

And the boss didn’t love MC, just sexually attracted?

How many chapters total in raws?

Why did MC agree to have sex with him? He could’ve had anyone else like finding a sex buddy. Why with someone that doesn’t care for him long term?

I did NOT expect this.

And is it really cheating if BF agreed?

I’m so shocked sorry. The one time cheating from ML was already bad but MC doing it as well and then getting back with ML? Sigh.

What the fuck oh nooooooooo aaaaaaaaaaah

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