im going to start crying, whyd i also feel gaslighted tho 💔

No literally. Maybe I'm just a pushover or something, but he actually made me feel bad even though I hate him. I'd never survive living in a BL lol.

Because that mf was gaslighting him.

He straight up blamed the MC for disregarding him as if he didn't slaughter everyone around him and brutalised him several times over.

That twinge of sympathy you both felt is why these narcissistic sociopaths get away with the sht they do.

Give the author credit for tapping into that shit. People who aren't exposed to it can brush it off in situations where it's less overt.