I'm kind of finding it hard to asSsEsS (lmao) if his borderline intense begging and gaslighting could be considered as such as he was doing it—because on one end I think he's just a hopeless fuck who's beyond deranged and desperate, that he's just crazily fucked and at an unhinged level of desperate as in he has no capacity to be conscious and acknowldge his selfishness (dude, to confess that he DOESN'T care if he were to be loved sincerely, so long as he can have any ounce of Sammyeong's attention is another fuckin level, not to mention asking Myeong to kill him); but at the same time whenever he "calms" down, it's also as if it's orchastrated and he knows he can eventually break Myeong and knows Myeong couldn't completely resent him, which negates my initial thoughts that he has no capacity to consciously see all the wrongs (meaning he can, and yet he just does shit maliciously anyway because he's obsessed and evil like that).
I'm wondering if what's the trajectory... will the author show that he has the capacity to know morals and he's just blinded by his obsessed head; or that he's obsessed but at the same time he knows he's wrong but he's just evil like that?
either way, SAM MYEONG YOU DON'T DESERVE ALL THESE SHIT, MY BOY ┗( T﹏T )┛
I'm kind of finding it hard to asSsEsS (lmao) if his borderline intense begging and gaslighting could be considered as such as he was doing it—because on one end I think he's just a hopeless fuck who's beyond deranged and desperate, that he's just crazily fucked and at an unhinged level of desperate as in he has no capacity to be conscious and acknowldge his selfishness (dude, to confess that he DOESN'T care if he were to be loved sincerely, so long as he can have any ounce of Sammyeong's attention is another fuckin level, not to mention asking Myeong to kill him); but at the same time whenever he "calms" down, it's also as if it's orchastrated and he knows he can eventually break Myeong and knows Myeong couldn't completely resent him, which negates my initial thoughts that he has no capacity to consciously see all the wrongs (meaning he can, and yet he just does shit maliciously anyway because he's obsessed and evil like that).
I'm wondering if what's the trajectory... will the author show that he has the capacity to know morals and he's just blinded by his obsessed head; or that he's obsessed but at the same time he knows he's wrong but he's just evil like that?
either way, SAM MYEONG YOU DON'T DESERVE ALL THESE SHIT, MY BOY ┗( T﹏T )┛