I....um...have some what same question ig......what do u do when u miss someone but u dont...

Parents sometimes say things in a moment of anger or frustation without realizing how it can affect their kids. Most of the time they don't even think of what they are saying. For example, my sister has a little girl, I've heard her sometimes say such mean things, but she always says is the only way to keep her daughter from screaming, and that she doesn't mean anything by it. Obviously it doesn't justify the comments, it's still mean, but it is true that most times it's not even a real thing.
You have nothing to be ashamed of. The brain isn't the most realiable source of memory (ironically) and we can forget even the most precious things to us without intention. It's normal too to have conflicting emotions when it comes to death and grief, so don't beat yourself up over it. You're a human being and you need to go through this process one step at a time, no matter how long ago it happened or what age you were.
As for what to do, I would follow this chapter's advice. Opening up to the people we trust, journaling our thoughts, even going to therapy, it really helps "digest" all the thoughts going around and understanding how, why and when they manifest. Don't hide how you feel, there's tons of people willing to listen and lend a hand when you need it the most.
Don't loose hope, and be sure that all this will come to pass, you just need to go through it.
I'm rooting for you! ヾ(❀╹◡╹)ﾉ~

i feel like we are very vulnerable beings, there are things we remember and things we don't and that is so natural yk? but to let go of the guilt and shame, of not remembering someone, isn't what something i could do as well. perhaps you will heal someday, and i will too, learn to unlearn the burden of carrying this guilt, because you too, deserve to be free

Thank you so much really.....i just saw another perspective, thank u ( ◜‿◝ )♡

So true....thank u so much ( ◜‿◝ )♡

hehehe i pray you get all the happiness you deserve! ٩(๑❛ᴗ❛๑)۶