Finished the Novel

Gaaaaaaah!!!!!!

I just spent 3 days binging the novel!!!


(spoilers ahead)


Ilay you romantic fuuuuuuuck!














Ilay saying that living with Tay feels like hell (after being lovers for several years already). It was painful (from someone who doesn't feel pain). But saying Tay will still be able live even if he dies but he won't be able to live if Tay dies.... So he goes on to commision the Task Force that once Tay dies and confirmed to be not of this world anymore, they are to assassinate Ilay right away. If that's not love, I don't know what is ╥﹏╥

Tay, I quite say, somewhere also has a screw loose. Being able to love someone like Ilay. Saying that being with Ilay, he was prepared that he's gonna get hurt, he might die along the way, that Ilay will definitely somehow reap what he sow from killing so many. But he will still be with him, even in hell, somehow they will still be together. Saying that in this world, no one will care for Ilay so he must be with him.

All that hurt my heart reading. But there are so many funny moments too, like the Task Force betting that they can make Tay say directly he couldn't help but love Ilay, and then he goes on to discover that he's rich asf (Ilay buying him a car, jet, mansion, yatch) He didn't get angry with Ilay but just straight up called him and asked Ilay for his entire fortune lol (which he got in like 10 minutes)


Sorry for the long rant. There were actually more standout scenes that there wouldn't be enough space here if I wrote more. And I feel like I also have a lot of bias writing this (which can make me unreliable in narrating) I wasn't able to sleep because of this, so I need to vent here.

That was a great 3 day read... And now that I've finished, I'm gonna go re-read again.