Ch 45

LONGGGG POST

Fuck not the act 2 break up curse I need the ambulance. Oughhhb this chapter is the culmination and clash of Hayden’s and Brett’s personalities and values. Hayden is of course and understandable heartbroken and devastated at what Brett had to go through and wants to his the rapists to get karma on what they did, but Brett says that it was all part of a larger plan, that they were just a gun but not the shooter. He apologies to Hayden for not telling him soon and having sex after but that’s Hayden’s least concern. God I forgot to mention that Hayden hugged Brett so tightly and with care but Brett couldn’t comprehend it, his vision literally warped and he furrowed his brows. He still can’t understand Hayden and perhaps him own feelings.

Brett says his revenge is to stand in court, to ruin the legacy that dared to kill him and hurt Hayden. Hayden wants them to get their own revenge but Brett tells him that he’s personally doing it.

Here’s where it gets tense, Brett refuses to tell Hayden in case of perjury (my translation also gets rough here so bear with me). He says that he can handle it himself that he’s a good liar, his own version of “consideration”, that it’s not a lack of talent on Hayden’s part but because it hurts haydens heart to act falsely, a guilt (tho I don’t rlly get what he means here). He tells Hayden to just not care, for him to anticipate their next date. He wants to go to Newport and chill on his yacht. Fun.

Hayden doesn’t think it’s fun tho and is kinda disgusted/freaked out/angry/shocked. He wonders how Brett can just say these things to him, without a care in the world how he thinks of Hayden as just some toy? He feels like he’s been played a fool, and that his emotions are undermined by some debt that he himself says Brett didn’t have over him. He asks why should this dead man’s honor matter when he didn’t expect nor want it. (Interesting visuals connecting it back to the bird gifting Brett did to his brother. Giving what he “wanted” but not in a sane fashion). He didn’t care if he ignored what happened, he didn’t need it.

God this next part Brett looks like his dad, faceless and cold. He tells Hayden that he didn’t care what Hayden thought (WHY BRETT WHY) . Here’s where calls back to the convo if he would call Hayden if he was hurt and he answers no (FUCK). He says that he told him everything, and that they could try to understand each other but why ask if he couldn’t handle it.

This is getting too long, but essentially Brett breaks it off. Gives Car keys assumingly in Hayden’s hand. That this romance he dreams of, the puzzle pieces don’t match, they can’t work out. Though Brett does reminisce, he had fun. Hayden snaps and pumps out his pheromones but in the end he’s just crying. He tells Brett that it’s not him that’s running away but you. It ends as it rains in the back. Reminds me of chapter 6 in a way. I’m just sad