
Sejin is correct that fear is like the only thing that can beat our inborn curiosity. Like I’ve experienced that, being like I don’t want to know, but also wanting to know. But fear is what keeps that box closed. In my case I’ll occasionally have nightmares that hint on those details, but my mind is smart enough to keep those memories hidden. I’ve also been in a situation where someone I love is telling me something & I have an idea about what they’re going to say, but as much as I’m curious if what I belive they’re going to say is what they actually say, I also had this strong desire for them to stop and not tell me. The thing is sometimes it’s better to know. I didn’t want to hear what my mom was going to tell me bc it had pretty dire ramifications for my state of mind, but also for my big sister. I didn’t delve into it bc I was scared to know more. Then our mom died suddenly & I thought we’d never find out all the gory details. But circumstances like a DNA test & finding someone who knew the details, informed us of the full horrible truth. But our mom was gone & we couldn’t, idk, tell her we were sorry that happened to her. It’s so complicated and terrible
If someone gave me a box and told me not to open it, I'll open in not even a minute ago