Pretty sure he's referring to when he said he'd prefer she started "living quietly like a dead rat" which he said while fully aware she was eavesdropping.
Uuuffff this will be interesting
I want to know as well. Hopefully it will be answered next chapter
but didn't he confessed that part alredy? Not much after Phil come back. She started forgive him, but asked if he know she is behind the door and he confessed that he knew. Or that was anorther thing?
What was he about to say? What happened when she was 9????