like me i was confused simply because i wasn’t reading the story just assuming what’s happening by looking at the pictures and taking glances at the text. normally im so consumed by the story but sometimes it just happens this way! thx for explaining
Ur so real
Lmao, dumbass uke, I thought the old guy manipulated him or smth. Turns out he was just butthurt that he got "rejected" when the top obviously luvs him.
The old guy may have put the moves on first by showing him the video but the bottom was more than willing to fuck the author of his favourite smut book. In fact, the old guy gave the bottom at least 2 outs and the bottom didn’t take it. The old guy had to end it himself because he didn’t feel comfortable with where it was going and also because he felt some sort of sentimental affection to the fact that the bottom likes the book he felt wasn’t good enough in the publics eye.
So the bottom didn’t end it on his end? Does he like ML? If so, why would he continue those acts with the old man (not that they had any sex but some torture like BDSM play). I guess good on the man for ending it??
I feel it would’ve been nicer if bottom ended it on his own accord. Otherwise I get the feeling he would’ve let that continue on. Why didn’t he? Because he felt like he deserved the punishment?
SIDE QUESTION: How many BDSM acts did the old man and bottom do? I only saw one or two, the tying up I think, and the one in bath.
As I’m typing this, I see your last paragraph about bottom not realising his love for seme. But didn’t he know he likes top if he wanted more when they were in college?
Yes the bottom likes the top. He is unaware of his own feelings since it’s a very muddy feeling of both love and resentment (of being rejected and neglected). Like I said, that’s his favourite BDSM author and he wanted to feel what he felt in the book in real life. He didn’t end it cause he’s an idiot and doesn’t actually know where his limits lie but also he did feel like he deserved punishment. He thought he would be fine but the old man wasn’t willing to burn someone’s tongue with a cigarette and he couldn’t do it to someone who liked the book most of society hated (aka his book baby).
As I saw, they did 2 main plays with a side of voyeurism and partial neglect. I think he was in that bathtub for an hour or longer.
Not everyone is in touch with their emotions and a lot of people aren’t actually as self aware as they imagine themselves to be. The bottom is less self aware than the average person. He likely didn’t realise that enjoying BDSM was less of a hobby and more of a lifestyle choice and that he likes his college friend. In fact I’m not even sure if he fully knew at the time that he’s 100% gay. I said it previously but his feelings of love are muddied with resentment and rejection. He felt both humiliated and abandoned when the top wouldn’t have sex with him and then ghosted him for a week or longer. When the top came back into the picture ready to explain, the resentment had already set in deep. That’s why he lied and said he had a lover already. It’s just very juvenile and toxic behaviour from all 3 men actually. This is NOT a fluffy manga. Ch1 fooled us with a good sadistic dom for once and then it went downhill from there ╥﹏╥
Did the bottom or top sleep with anyone else during their separation? Cause if it says they didn’t, it’s unrealistic to me + cliche trope of “loyalty”.
The bottom is less self aware than the average person? You have some words! Damn.
Voyeurism? What chapter was that? I might’ve forgotten. In ch 4?
No clue. I assume the bottom hasn’t but I honestly couldn’t tell you.
The old guy is sat in a chair next to the bottom while he’s in the bathtub. Yes he has a book but it’s hinted at that they were in the bathroom for a long time so the old man would have looked at the bottom so that’s voyeurism since they didn’t do anything sexual. He was just watching. Theres also an element of humiliation play but the bottom didn’t feel humiliated so I didn’t mention it earlier. The voyeurism is part of the humiliation play. It’s almost like saying “I’m going to watch you while you’re tied up pathetically ass up in a bathtub cause you get off on that stuff.”
Aw shit my bad I thought voyeurism was a third party watching a couple go at it or something.
Voyeurism is simply getting enjoyment by watching someone. Whether it’s the partner or a third party, it doesn’t matter. Exhibitionism is getting enjoyment out of showing yourself (and maybe your partner).
So everyone’s doing voyeurism rn?
Haha lol technically we are partaking in porn not voyeurism but I mean it’s also not NOT voyeurism lmao. But it’s gotta get you off. The act of watching rather than participating.
I don’t like voyeur. I like exhibitionism, it’s dawned on me after having this conversation
YAY!!! We’re learning more about ourselves!! That’s awesome! I’m probably more the same as you but I’m a sadomaso switch so sometimes I like voyeurism. Depends on how sexy the person is in front of me
I get it. Personally I like to peg my boyfriend….he’s pretty sexy alright and eventually loved his prostate being touched, I thought it was a shame I couldn’t be a “real switch” since I don’t have a real pp. I get extremely turned on during consensual non-con role play where he’s crying or other role plays when I do degrading actions and saying degrading words (which he likes), I’ve also tried binding his hands which went well + blindfolds for beginner.
I swear I always tell god I was supposed to be a man (satire, but I do jokingly say it after my prayers depending on context of my prayer). Like it’s not the same having fake pp vs heat conductor real pp (what am I saying, sorry).
Also, how do I figure out if I’m a sado/maso?
You are a real switch hun! I also don’t have a peen. If you enjoy seeing him cry and like degradation and things like that and stuff that “hurts” him (not really really hurts him but just enough to melt into the pleasure) then congrats you’re a sadist. If you enjoy those things being done to you, congrats you’re a masochist! If you have both then congrats you’re a sadomaso ヾ(❀╹◡╹)ﾉ~
Also, I sometimes with I had a real peen myself. I have pcos and endo personally so sometimes I get really mad at any and all gods for allowing this to happen to me lol. I just don’t think I’d want the hassle of a real peen cause you know.. swimmers can cause problems if you don’t want them.
Bottom and top fool around in college. Bottom wants more but top is hesitant so they grow apart.
Fast forward to years later and top goes to bottoms company to publish his book. Bottom is still upset about what happened years ago so he doesn’t submit it for review. He later gives the BDSM author aka old man the tops original work that wasn’t submitted (also in anger/upset). Old man publishes that story.
Top finds out and punishes bottom while recording it all. Top sends that video to the old man with threats since it’s plagiarism and he’s upset at both bottom and old man. Old man is upset at bottom so he punishes him (also with BDSM). Old man actually hated his original BDSM novel so when he found out bottom loves that story, he couldn’t stay mad and let the bottom go. He gives bottom advice to go to top and work things out.
I’m pretty sure the bottom doesn’t realise that he’s in love with the top and that he was just butthurt at being rejected. That’s pretty much all that happens. I’m not sure what ended up being confusing but I see a lot of comments about it.