Nvm im fucking stupid just read the next few chapters but still am confused how he, when hes sane, just casually treats the knights and him being their captain as normal when that would imply that he had the same amount of bloodlust or participated in the type of violence the knights are known for since hes. Well.. literally their captain. Like, why isnt he suspicious. Why isnt he thinking. Isnt that shit weird cuz hes not supposed to like remember details of fights or memories like that? Can someone explain to me i think i missed a detail im crashing out i really need to know... im too lazy to reread when i havent even finished
Like doesnt he just think hes a regular ass dude, who has a weak body,and while he can technically fight he doesnt really think he can fight as well as he actually does when hes crashing out whyis he so casual abt being a war hero is the shit about him talking about being unable to fight a corps commander retconned, is he stupid, is he schizoprenic, or am i just dumb as fuck cuz he just is simply thinking demons are strong. But he acts like hes weak as fuck why. Is he stupid? Is that only referring to his body? But he acts like he cant do shit at all
Im @ chap 21 rn, super good 5 stars but also im ngl im so genuinely confused can someone explain, like the plot is so fun and all but my braincells arent braining... bc didnt he lose a good portion of his memories from the war?
doesnt he refer to himself as someone cant fight cuz he doesnt remember? Like the weak (body) part is right but he really can fight tho. But the chapters around 20 make it seem like he remembers the war, the neglect, and especially his hatred towards Cruel nd the family, as well as the knights he was captain of. Doesnt this mean he remembers the times he was fighting and fought to survive?
Did he remember memories bc of the flashback/dream? If so why is he still acting like he cant fight or do anything when he literally became count bc of his war achievements? He literally was the vanguard, he killed a buncha ppl nd shit why does he remember the soldiers nd yet not remember knowing how to fight im so sorry i am so fucking confused like its fun but the thread is like. All jimbled up in my head its hindering my enjoyment
Dw tho im rlly interested nd ill continue reading so maybe im just impatient and/or didnt read it right haha