pls help me find this crazy story that lowkey traumatized me (?)

okay so. i remember reading this and telling a friend about it cuz i was so caught of guard by it (so i can confirm this is not a figment of my imagination) i didn’t bookmark it or save it in anyway cuz it was so crazy but i will NOT rest until i remember what this story was. basically, from what i can remember, the uke had like memory loss or something (?) and the seme seemed to know more about their past than he lead on and..well! turns out the seme was his uncle who literally groomed him…and we find this all out late into the story after the uke tries to end his life in the same way he did the first time after finding out his uncle was going to get married to a woman, which i believe lead to his memory loss once he survived and awoke. the story starts post all of this happening so i had no idea it was gonna go in that direction and this is such a badddd summary but i genuinely blocked out most of it from my mind cuz uhm wtf! but i can’t rest until i know i’m not crazy and this story exists, i can’t even remember what the characters looked like. pls anyone? :,)